I'm in my 40s. I am a NEET, and have been for longer than I care to say. I have no transportation, no job, no friends, and no real future. I'm shocked that I've lived as long as I have, really.

And I've been thinking for the past couple of hours about taking a gun - for the record, I don't have one - and blowing my brains out.

Give me a reason to keep living. Give me something other than "become an hero". I want to live, but I don't want to live like this any more.