I just don't know how much I can take any fucking more. I just saw someone turbo posting about the love of their life, how they want to have sex with them, how much they love them and are happy to be together. He's gay for context and I'm not, but the person's a literal gacha fan and he's still living Heaven on Earth compared to me - I have fucking nothing. I don't even have a fucking friend to have fun with for hours anymore. I'm still lonely, directionless, I'm friendless, I have no support, no love, nothing truly fun to do, absolutely ZERO meaningful success IRL and my mental health is starting to tear apart even worse than I could ever imagine. This is practically hell and I hate it but there's no escape.
I'm not being selfish and saying I don't deserve it nor is it 100 percent about wanting a significant other (female). Trust me I'm not super entitled like that. Even a simple nice friend could improve this messed up way I feel significantly... I'm just so lonely and lost and in pain