did you guys have any gf or experiences in your life? how was your relationship with love and identity in general? i had two real crushes (and many fictional) in my life and i always used to feel like them, like i actually was their identity and would try to copy them hard subconsciously. i just made it to 22 and i cope with reading fics on ao3. but most of the time i don't care. it's like some brief realizations of how lonely i feel coming out of me for days and then shutting off for many months and the cycle repeats.
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my deceased grandpa had schizophrenia from a young age and was hospitalized for twenty years, and both me and my mother have all the signs of being schizoid, especially me.