I want Nicole to piss on my face. i want her to choke me and spit in my mouth. i want her to call me names until i break down and start crying. i want her to gaslight me and apologize. tell me she wont do it again. just to do the same the next day. i want to be scared of walking away from her. i want to chemically depend on her grabbing and squeezing my nuts until i beg her to stop. i want her to slap me, punch and tell me she hates me. i love her and she hates me. i lov eh er and she hates me. i love her and she doesnt even know me... i should donate more to her. maybe then....
