after 25 years i think i understand that i have some sort of depression now
i always thought it was fake shit or something but the feelings of emptyness are starting to hit hard
i never had any real friends and attempts are romance ended in failure
wagecucking changed nothing but allow some amount of disposeable income to buy some gaming hardware and enable my alchololism
i dont like it when people start trying to get into my personal life and wanting to know about me because i know there is nothing there, i try to distance myself from other naturally
i just want to sleep all day and not eat or shower or anything
i dont want to live and i dont want to die
of course nobody understands me, it doesnt make any sense
i dont know why i care anyway, i dont want to live long enough to see myself become old and frail either
i know i wont retire and there is no option besides wagecucking and drinking myself into a coma every day
i dont know whats wrong with me
end of blogpost, thanks to op for enabling me to blogpost myself
thanks to videogames for providing an escapism for my uneventful and stagnant shit life
thanks to anons for amusing and conforting me in times of need for these 10 years of mostly lurking
