i hate the "big dick femboy" meme like i finally feel comfortable with barely having 4 inches and being underweight and now its ruined

what if im an underweight 5'8 manlet with faggot floofy hair and im a bottom
but my ultimate goal is to inject testosterone and just look like a normal fucking man for once, not even a muscle meathead. the only two friends i have are pooners too
i want to raise a family and have kids even though im a faggot
i know that doesnt make sense