I just turned 28, I've been depressed for several weeks and problems are piling up. I feel like bad news keeps coming one after another right now. I don't know if I'm burning bad karma or what's going on, but every day I hope I've hit rock bottom so I can start climbing back up, but no.

Every day, unfortunate events occur, absurd situations. The most "amusing" one recently: I tripped over a barrier in the middle of the street, which tore my pants, and I ended up with my butt in underwear exposed in front of people (yes, really). Had to walk back home like that. And so on, other stuff, every day. It's all so tiresome.

I'm depressed, I have memory problems, I'm 28 years old and stuck in a toxic job that I can't leave because I'm still studying, I have bad addictions and mental issues, my mother has health problems and is going to the hospital, I only have one friend that I see from time to time every two months, I have social anxiety... And tonight, my relationship of over a year and a half just ended. I feel worn out and empty. I thought she was the one. I was her first. I'm getting old and my heart is sclerosint. It's going to get harder and harder to find my sweetheart. All my relationships fail.

I welcome advice and prayers... Tell me it's going to be okay, anon...

When I was a teenager, I witnessed paranormal phenomena, ghosts and so on. Until a few years ago, I regularly had synchronicities, my sigil spells worked from time to time and I felt a presence in my prayers. But since then I've grown older and I feel as if I've totally calcified and solidified. My view of the world is eaten away by scepticism and materialism, and my prayers ring hollow, like empty theatrical formulas. I feel depressed and lethargic. One morning I thought I saw larvae clinging to me. I'm depressed, I can't meditate any more, my spells don't work, I dont have synchronicities anymore, I can't feel the divine, I can't charge a sigil, I feel totally cut off from the source, I'm brooding, I'm feeling empty, tired and aimless. Some people say that this solidification at least has the merit of protecting me from infernal influences, but in the meantime I can't feel anything, not even positive influences. I feel anaesthetised, numb, calcified. My 3rd eye is the only thing I can still feel if I concentrate, my last link with the supramundane. Every day, I go to my shitty job, I take the bus, I come home and I lie on the sofa, totally cut off from any transcendence, any meaning, any sensation, any blessing. I pray for help, I try to invoke, and nothing works, I've run out of fuel.
What can I do about it? Seriously I feel like I'm becoming a stone, a living dead, a hylic.