>This is me
Im beatiful, indeed. Useful? Idk im 23 and im still virgin and i have to take meds. I guess something went wrong, i fucked up somewhere in my life to get to this age without gf. I guess God intended something else, to use my beauty for something holy, constructive, or just to use it because it is a gift and you have to wear it, which I lament I havent done. Imagine you get a precious gift for your birthday and never use it, how would the person that gave you the gift might feel? How gods feel about me? My mental health has deteriorated, I cannot relate to people anymore, I feel alienated, unforgiven, unreedemed, I masturbate and watch porn.... I wasnt made for this.