>>40718901
i don’t know. i really don’t. i’m not even sure if i’m even “resisting” at this point, i’m just going with the flow of it all. do what i’m scheduled to do on that day, what i’m expected to do, each and every day. i mean, what else am i supposed to do? i have nothing. am nothing. i don’t have the hope to push myself forward or the strength of will to end myself. trapped. in limbo. limbo limbo limbo. painful limbo. so tired :(