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As a kid in church I’d look around and think these people and think they were zombies or something had them, unfortunately even though I saw and felt that I was a christian for a good while but I will say the first I heard about reincarnation as a kid it just stuck with me and to this day i still believe in it. I stopped being a christian when I was in a fetal position on my bed and in the absolute worst moment of my life, I was taken from style of living and plunged into another. Trial by fire basically and at that time I was misdiagnosed with the wrong mental illness and so much was expected of me even though I was a teen at that time.
And even though I begged to hear the voice of yhwh and for a fix or even guidance but nothing happened what so ever despite hearing time and time again christians who strongly believed could hear the voice of god no matter where I went.
I was a innocent teen around that time(I’m 26 now) so theres no way that was punishment and something I’ve seen time and time again is that people suffer, the wrong people while the deserving don't.
>i.e Palestinians, if you trace the modern Palestinians heritage back you’ll realize they’re the Semitic jews while the white Zionist who run israel can be traced back to the ashkenazi whom on record are from the black sea area and aren’t actually jewish but adopted their religion, they formed the modern state of israel after fleeing nazi Germany and being taken in by the Palestinians and then stabbing said Palestinians in the back by forming the state of israel.
Thus began my journey and I’d learn about spirituality, consciousness, karma, cyclical events, ancient civilizations, I’m no plato but I do know some stuff and can actively learn, now I believe everything is consciousness and god and you get a choice between reincarnation, shared dream scapes or individual dream scapes when you die, I believe in karma and I believe in metaphysical things and cyclical events