>>82166344
All of human society is artificial. No it is not a natural inherent desire to code video games for anybody. Atleast you're finally realizing to admit it to yourself that you're getting no where because you're just forcing it because you think you "have to" do something other than survive. Sounds like you've been brainwashed by "Hustle Culture" and think you have to be some clout chasing try-hard yet your honest feelings is you don't actually want to do any of it. Most people just do what they can to survive and die that's life kid you're not special.