>>82267093
>whats on your mind anon?
thinking about the fact im so retarded im trying to drown myself in the fact im alright but in trully not all i do is wake up work come home and play battlefield 1 jerk off or lurk on 4chan im ugly and Fat? more so skinny fat im a engineer so i got that going for me but the recemt relationship drama i had with my ex and shit destroyed me was cheated on lied and manipuated and lost my 4 year long relationship a lot of fine detials are fucking me over as well like the fact i cant force myself to do shit like i could before ect brush my teeth
>are you worried?
i gave up on thinking my future is good but my mental is fucked i dont care if i die alone get hit by a car or something i stopped chasing cheap dopamine and happiness i wish to say i do something edgy and depressive like walk at night alone which i dont do as much as i want to
>are you happy
im not happy but most of the time im not sad i get breakdowns every so often and they fuck me up a bit
>does everything feel like nothing?
everything feels heavy more so then like nothing
>mfw
im venting on /r9k/
