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i guess it's less about being kind to someone and more about not being particularly able to be upset at them for long? i don't really mince words if someone does something shitty to me, but i also don't... lay into them? i dunno.
i feel bitter and hurt over the way some people have treated me, or used me, or siphoned from me. but i struggle to perhaps be as angry as i should be, as upset as i should be towards them. i feel like i would benefit from being able to feel that way towards people. it seems almost useful to be able to hold a grudge, to be angry about something rather than just intensely, endlessly hurt or sad about it.