>>82912637
>When was the last time you hurt yourself?
July this year. I relapsed after three years of abstinence.

>Why did you hurt yourself?
Probably because I still cant deal with my emotions. I went through a breakup this summer and my ex texted me that day. I think that just broke down my last defenses and all my bottled up stress got unleashed.

>Is there anything bothering you right now?
The cuts healed after a few weeks, but when I touch the scars, there is a weird tingling sensation all over my lower arm. Thats kinda worrying, but it doesnt seem to get worse.

Whats actually bothering me is that, even after months of therapy, Im still not stable. After my relapse I got very careful. I didnt touch any alcohol and focused on the things that made me happy and gave me confidence. That worked out pretty well until this week. I got sick and had to stay home for a few days. This completely threw me back into a lot of dark thoughts. I started drinking again and slowly went back down this dark path which sooner or later ends in SH. Im getting better so I dont think that I will hurt myself again anytime soon, but its a daunting feeling to know how fragile my mental health is.