Why should I have to change for everyone else? I just want to be myself and not have to be practically lobotomized. Is that a narcissistic thing to think that I don't want my personality and or mind permanently fucked with? I like my free will intact

Im watching the death of free will in horror and the fact nobody is doing anything about it is angering so I hope God does something about it. Free will is not a myth unless you're a normalfag hylic.and a soulless husk