>>40921934
lack of distractions.. got thay shit too, crying to pillow if too sober... melancholic calling... glowy luminous visions of what could and should be tormenting me squezing tears... welcome to the club. codeine uesterday eveningbhelped a bit... but bubnlu jesterish mmod got ruined as ibsaw muslef inbmirror with hair up at work... worries not... tine will come we all be beautiful womennif not lifw then one of another. freedom will come.
zdrowie!

fucken shit... woke up all bubbly and happy expressive n shiet but at work saw reflection at mirror with hair tied and got down... drunk on disinfectant again as out of rc stimms. prolly will drink lavender oil again. fuuuu... what to do? again grow boobers from lavender oil? hard. to resist... didnt drank for like a year... fuck... maternal grandapa ded. paternals distant... cant get it out of brains... reeee.... sis will/would get it... not strong enough to handle...maube it will work, grandma is demented, and... mom maybe willnunderstand but need to fllee ...