>>40960197
>Ive never asked for this shit
full on ditto with a capital F with you on that one.

https://www.britannica.com/topic/Lethe

>In Orphism, a Greek mystical religious movement, it was believed that the newly dead who drank from the River Lethe would lose all memory of their past existence. The initiated were taught to seek instead the river of memory, Mnemosyne, thus securing the end of the transmigration of the soul.

it is my speculation that we were fed some Lethe water to forget why we came here. towards your question about a choice to not exist, I doubt that we are even able to not exist. there are a few entities who may be able to answer your question

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Abaddon

the kikes stole and subverted him into their religion during the koine greek period of collapse. in not so many words, Abaddon is the last entity you will ever meet before you are completely annihilated and removed from existence. he is, for lack of a better phrase, the entity tasked with final destruction of a soul. it is my understanding that he takes his orders directly from the creator and even the devil hates him out of jealousy. he can probably answer your questions, or at least help you get where you want to go.

as psyhopomps go, he is lame. for me, its Charon. beats the shit out of people, loads them onto a boat, a sails them off to the underworld. he never asked for this shit either, but he is making the best of it for himself.