I have examined all Christian, Jewish, and Muslim religion. And I just hate God.

If God is so good, why doesn't everyone love him? Why can't they see his goodness as self evident and love him for he is the truth? The answer is simple, because he is not actually good. At best he is indifferent, at worst he is actively malevolent and evil. I don't even believe he doesn't exist, before any smart ass ITT calls me an atheist. I know God exists.