Today is day 66 on semen retention. For the first time on this streak I became super close to relapsing and peeked at porn yesterday. I made a fetlife account and was looking up all of the local whores looking for something that was going down. Texted a few old flings, the ones that responded told me to fuck off and to move on with my life. Didn’t goon at least. I deleted fetlife last night and tinder. I had an account active for about 8 hours. Thought about going to an asian massage parlor. Somehow last night I snapped out of it. I also bought $50 in supplements that are supposed to enhance the effects of SR, L theamine, Zinc, L arginine, Lecithin, Iodine, Maca. Yeah. Hopefully I move forward with a clearer head and intentions. I need to get more into exercising. The weekends are really difficult for me. I work a well paying physically demanding job so the weekends days are usually a piece of cake. For some reason these past five days have been a bit of a struggle mentally. I REALLY dont want to relapse. I feel the boost in energy, mood, a more stable attitude and I need all of that for my life. I cannot afford to go back tonthe old me for five seconds of a dopamine hit. I cannot afford to compromise my mind and body like I have done for decades. I am in my thirties and I cannot bounce back like I did in my twenties. In your thirties your stupid decisions have more of a direct effect on your mind, body, demeanor, everything. Hold the line retainers WAAGTMI! If you relapse, dont wallow in guilt, just lace up and get back on the wagon because it’s part of the process. WAAGTMI!