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Welcome to the Semen Retention General!

>What is Semen Retention?
Semen retention is the practice of completely abstaining from masturbation and ejaculation, often with the intention of preserving and redirecting vital and sexual energy to oneself.

>What's the difference between a clean retention streak and a dirty retention streak?
A clean streak means no 'peeking' aka actively looking up porn or erotic images you usually use to fap. If you do that, it becomes a dirty streak. This also includes thinking to horny thoughts or past sexual experiences. In a dirty streak you peeked and might have even touched yourself but you did not ejaculate, thus the streak continues in that regard but becomes 'dirty' for those days. If you ejaculated the retention streak ends. You should always strive for a streak that is clean in both thoughts and actions.

>Why do it?
Reported benefits include: increased vitality, mental clarity, reduced stress, increased motivation, increased energy, improved focus, healthier hair/skin/eyes, deeper meditation, improved AP/Lucid Dreams, deeper voice, improved mood, greatly improved testosterone, improved physical strength and many more.

>Wet Dreams?
They happen because you had a sexual dream and you coomed. Learn to be conscious on your dreams and stop the succubus.

>What causes wet dreams?
The causes are many: Illnesses, telepathic bad actors fucking with your dreams, excess energy build up, watching too much sexually-inducing stuff, lusting during the day, lack of an adequate transmutation activity, eating too late at night, excess nutrients overall, stimulants like maca, ginseng, ginger, excess protein, excess carbs, tight clothes (pajamas) for bedtime, bad sleeping posture (this varies, find the one that suits you best), going to bed with full bladder, exposure to hormonal disruptors via food (pesticides...) or body care products (soap, deodorant etc)...

shills create threads without the important stuff so here you go

>In case of urges:
- https://imgur.com/a/g4eGH
- Don't peek and Hold your breath for as long as you possibly can. The urge usually pass after that. If not, repeat.
- Horse stance or chair pose: Do it while clenching the abdomen and all legs' muscles, raise arms for extra blood flow redirection. Works both for killing erections or urges.
- Any physical activity.

On long clean streaks many report benefits that transcend current science like a sort of "magnetism" or higher "vibration/aura" that attracts/appeals to other living beings, a higher perception, a stronger and intimidating "aura/presence", a deeper connection with nature, an attractive BO (people usually report it as "pheromones") and more.

>Advices:
- Mental Purity 1.1: Semen Retention acts as a bio-electromagnetic amplifier. Watch the quality of your thoughts because your inner state will get amplified and manifested. Lust is the Ojas killer. Do not engage with Lust.
- Mental Purity 1.2: Keep a journal as a tool for introspection.
- NEVER watch porn of any kind.
- Remove triggers from your life. Masturbation is a bad habit. Break that bad habit.
- Focus on achieving a goal. An art, a craft, competing, etc.
- Meditate and/or Pray Daily. Try a minimum of 5 minutes to start off.
- Exercise/Gym/Sports/Martial Arts. If it is something social even better.
- Good habits like healthy eating, water fasting, dry fasting, sun exposure and cold showers do seem to speed up the process.
- Sublimation: literally using the energy.
- Transmutation: changing the quality of energy to something different. (Surya Namaskara, 8 brocades, Tibetan rites)

Keep in mind that the efferent nerves attached to your testes necessarily means that any lustful thought, image, or sound is necessarily a command to your junk to produce sexual fluids and this is the reason why celibacy is first and foremost of the mind
The root of this entire matter is the mind - without conquering the mind, celibacy is a futile effort
The signals from the brain happen on the subconscious autonomic level
This is why any lustful thought, image, or sound is necessarily a command to the sexual organs to produce sexual fluids (the more intently you look, the higher amplitude of a signal gets sent: body > afferent nerves > brain > efferent nerves > body)
Therefore "Conversion of sexual energy to something" is necessarily a HORRIBLY inefficient process (Not to confuse with Sexual Transmutation)
Fluids will be reabsorbed, but the energy and materials cost to make it vs how much is "taken back" via reabsorption is SEVERELY unbalanced and super net negative
Sexual fluids are made from the cream of the crop of the body's resources - constantly generating them means that you are constantly draining away the cream of the crop of your resources.
Taoist writings said that the sexual organs will even take primacy over nourishing your other internal organs at some point. (Thus, doing a spiritual practice as a coomer is a surefire way to die faster).

>/SRG/ interesting reads
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Periodic changes in serum testosterone levels after ejaculation in men
https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/12506329/

Influence of abstinence and ejaculation-to-analysis delay on semen analysis parameters of suspected infertile men
https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/7114956/

Improved sperm kinematics in semen samples collected after 2 h versus 4-7 days of ejaculation abstinence
https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/28531319/

Influence of a short or long abstinence period on semen parameters in the ejaculate of patients with nonobstructive azoospermia
https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/11532469/

Seasonal changes in breeding activity, testicular size, testosterone concentration and seminal characteristics in rams with long or short breeding season
https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/6706874/

Shorter abstinence decreases sperm deoxyribonucleic acid fragmentation in ejaculate
https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/21924714/

Endocrine response to masturbation-induced orgasm in healthy men following a 3-week sexual abstinence
https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/11760788/

Relationship between sexual satiety and brain androgen receptors
https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/17268169/

A research on the relationship between ejaculation and serum testosterone level in men
https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/12659241/

It’s always good to remember why /x/ is the most accurate place for this topic: semen retention is one of the clearest paranormal inducing thing of all the other topics discussed on /x/. It’s a sacred practice that has been the one of the main focuses in every major religion or spiritual practices. The mystical side of it is what we try to focus on in here.

Semen retention can be political issue too and it would then belong to /pol/. The porn industry is a tool made by the jews to deterioate the societies and corrupt the people. The porn works in ways that program new sets of behaviour in its audience and the audience is hooked to it because of its strong addictive qualities. The most important goal for porn’s male audience was and is the releasing of their semen. As we now know, the disadvantages of cooming are heavy: a man becomes less of a man, he gets sick and weak, his mind numbed, he will have impotence issues etc. Also his spirit almost dies.

Semen retention is beneficial to make one healthier and stronger, more fit, if you will. So the topic could be discussed on /fit/. Anyone looking for more ways to get fitness gains would benefit hugely from the SR.

Also the SR has so many other benefits that it could be discussed in the /adv/ board. These would be topics how it improves one’s social life, mental state, makes more time to be more productive etc.

But I think the biggest benefits of SR are something mystical in nature and the whole practice is fundamentally something very close to spiritual side of things. All the other topics in here /x/ are left far behind and SR actually makes this board of any relevancy. This is also known by the enemy and they make strong efforts to suppress, hijack, twist and end this discussion.

>make a conscious effort to go on no fap/no porn/no dirty thoughts
>on the literal first day see the name Lilith 3 times
>see a pentagram, as well as a bunch of other weird shit
>lights/shadows out of the corner of my eye
>have the overwhelming sense that a presence is watching me, almost threatening to hurt me in some way if I don't comply
>wake up after refusing to coom, there was an earthquake that shook my house (there hasn't been an Earthquake recorded here in the last 70 years)
What the fuck /x/? I've gone periods without cooming before, like 1-2 weeks, but the moment I willingly decided to do it on my own terms all this shit started happening. Something REALLY doesn't want me to continue.

had some magnetism benefits lately. women at the gym doing that thing where they hang around you, let you see their ass, etc. i have a long history of getting nothing from women, so i'll say this: when it happens, it's incredibly obvious. they want you. they want me seed

they aint getting it

On day 2, feel good, feeling right.

Does pornography addiction make you anxious and kind of retarded? I've noticed I get paranoid really easy and so does a friend of mine who is also a coomer. I'm hoping avoiding porn might cure me of this. I heard once that when you look at porn you're pleasuring yourself by inflicting anxiety and it would kind of make sense.

>>40917237
Porn destroys everything, its results are so obscenely negative on every aspect of the human psyche, if people knew what it did it’d be illegal.

>>40917237
>Does pornography addiction make you anxious and kind of retarded?
Yes. It makes you worse in every conceivable way except for your capacity to go on living as if nothing is wrong while actually degenerating into a progressively worse and worse situation.

>>40917269
>>40917271
Tbh in this moment I'm feeling a lot of anxiety and am very close to slipping back into it. I've been off porn for 2 weeks now except seeing stuff get posted on 4chan unintentionally. I think I just need to leave the internet so I stop seeing any of it but this is my one source of socialization these days almost.

>>40917273
You’ll regret it, it’s not worth it.

Thread proclamations.

Proclamation 1. Whoever post or lurk in this thread will have tremendous success with their SR goals.

Proclamation 2. Any shills will be greatly punished for sabotaging this thread in anyway.

Proclamation 3. Anyone who post or lurk in this thread shall have no more lustful urges.

Proclamation 4. Any woman who wants our seed shall not receive it. Our seed belongs in our balls. Not in some shedemon.

>>40917273
>I think I just need to leave the internet so I stop seeing any of it
Do it.
>but this is my one source of socialization these days almost.
Still do it. Sorry to break it to you but posting on a board is not the type of genuine social interaction that humans are hardwired for. Every bit of comfort you indulge that keeps you stagnant, keeps you from improving your life is nothing but ice cream, and you're a big fat fuck. You don't need it. You're going to feel worse before you feel better.

What you think of as a "lifeline", the thing you do when you're bored that's keeping you from total abject despair, adds no real value to your life at all. Go and meditate, and if you find it very hard, that means you need to do it. Just go sit and think about nothing for a few hours in the dark, I'm completely serious. You don't need this retarded bullshit distraction. DO NOT LOOK AT PORN OR JERK OFF!

>>40917351
Thank you anon I appreciate this post.

I'm 1 week thus far, won't really say I noticed any benefits but I felt sick of my desires that's why I'm doing this. Previously did 1 month but jerked off to make sure everything was still working. I don't plan on jerking again until I meet the love of my life, if ever

IT'S 10 SECONDS OF PLEASURE
THE DESIRE TO BUST WILL PASS WHETHER YOU BUST OR NOT

Any of you care to share some experiences water fasting while doing SR?
The last time I combined it with a fast , on the 2nd and 3rd day I had an unparalleled clarity of mind, laser focus, and generally felt light as a feather, everything was going smoothly and effortlessly, and it felt like my aura was MASSIVELY amplified, now I'm doing it again and I'm interested in what you guys' experiences are

>>40916481
>founder of the Society of Jesus (Jesuits).
Aren't the Jesuits evil as fuck???

>>40915296
Keep trying, don't give up.

>>40917371
Being in control of your actions is the biggest benefit of all

>>40917371
>Previously did 1 month but jerked off to make sure everything was still working.
kek I've used that excuse before as well. What do you think is going to go wrong? Do you think you're an old Austin Healey that needs to be driven around the block every few months so your brakes don't rust?

>>40917419
Not really an excuse, not having morning wood out of nowhere can be alarming

>>40917083 (OP)
woke up humping my mattress almost busted

>>40917457
>woke up humping my mattress
Wait were you IRL acting out a dream or something? Partially involuntary?

>start semen retention
>3 days in
>randomly girl asks me to jerk off with her
why is God testing me? i know this wouldn't happen otherwise

Tomorrow will be day 65. Havent fapped or peeked but sent a thirsty text to a girl. I love the weekends obviously because I can sleep in and I dont have to work but fuck are those the most challenging days for SR. Im starting to struggle a bit and my mind is starting to wander. I dont want to relapse but those whispers of satan are coming in more frequently. Some days are easy some are challenging.

>>40917465
If youre sleeping face down on your bed you will almost instinctually start dry humping your bed. I do it even on SR. I guess thats edging but whatever im still new to this.

>>40917465
it was a sexually charged dream from what i remember, embarassingly i was watching porn in it, i remember telling myself in the dream that i shouldn't be doing this and woke up as i became semi-lucid. and yeah i woke up humping and i had to catch myself quick because i was completely on the edge. i thought at first it was a false awakening but it was a real one and there i was fucking my bed cus i dreamed of internet porn. felt like pure shit after but glad i was strong enough

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You retards think you are smart, but you aren't, in 4chan the t word is one of the few consistently moderated things, you are giving some reddit random ammunition to get the general shut down, stop. Ignore the shills and the trolls. Just imagine them seething at every new anon discovering SR.

>>40917531
Dilate tranny, we're not falling for this psyop

>>40916807
>I fucking hate this shit. I hate that I've been addicted to this shit since I was a kid and that I'm actually fucking brain damaged as a result of it.
Yeah it sucks I remember as a kid I used to have so much energy and be curious about everything and was even able to get of schoolwork and then I discovered PMO. I thought it was just a harmless activity like the internet said that made me feel really good. Meanwhile over time I lost the energy and the diligence and the drive to learn, and replaced it with a habit of getting off to new porn every day. I fell into depression and developed this feeling of imposter syndrome, that my abilities were somehow fraudulent, and that cost me years of my life. After 4 weeks on SR I feel like 5 to 8% of that childhood optimism and if I truly want to turn my life around I have to manifest that into a year or more. I finally get that line from Jesus that "except ye be converted, and become as little children, ye shall not enter into the kingdom of heaven." I've been such a fool all this time Lord, forgive me, since the fruits of righteousness are unlike and more excellent than all the base pleasures the world lures the innocent into destruction with. Amen.

>>40917293
>You’ll regret it, it’s not worth it.
This, we all must remember this at all times of temptation.

>>40917392
>Aren't the Jesuits evil as fuck???
Yup.
That's why I tell people to approach Χρῑστός, The Christ, not religion.
>>40916396
>What does that mean?
>Sometimes I pray for the lust to go away but
>it's often too late
It means don't be ashamed to ask Jesus The Christ for help before, during and after, from the bottom of your heart, with genuine honesty.

>>40916807
>I fucking hate this shit. I hate that I've been addicted to this shit since I was a kid and that I'm actually fucking brain damaged as a result of it.
Yeah it sucks I remember as a kid I used to have so much energy and be curious about everything and was even able to get ahead of schoolwork and then I discovered PMO. I thought it was just a harmless activity like the internet said that made me feel really good. Meanwhile over time I lost the energy and the diligence and the drive to learn, and replaced it with a habit of getting off to new porn every day. I fell into depression and developed this feeling of imposter syndrome, that my abilities were somehow fraudulent, and that cost me years of my life and scores of lost opportunities. After 4 weeks on SR I feel like 5 to 8% of that childhood optimism and if I truly want to turn my life around I have to manifest that into a year or more. I finally get that line from Jesus that "except ye be converted, and become as little children, ye shall not enter into the kingdom of heaven." I've been such a fool all this time Lord, forgive me, since the fruits of righteousness are unlike and more excellent than all the base pleasures the world lures the innocent into destruction with. Amen.

>>40917273
install 4chan-x and enable the SFW setting.

>>40917237
>porn
Biological interactions happen when people view porn, causing men to experience erections and women to experience dilated genitals and lubrication from the vaginal walls (NHS, 2016; NHS, 2016). However, psychological changes also occur. fMRIs revealed that when men watch porn, elevated activity in the ventral striatum can be observed where the brains reward-system releases dopamine, the neurotransmitter responsible for pleasure (Hess, 2017; Simpson, 2017). The amygdala (the brain portion responsible emotional behaviour and motivation), also activates when viewing porn (Gola et al., 2015), both of which activates the brains reward-pathway which influences conditioning towards desiring a certain stimulus again - a process which can lead to pornography addictions (Hess, 2017). Furthermore, those who view greater amounts of porn also have lesser volumes of grey matter (The Guardian, 2014). Whilst this finding does not suggest causation, it is important to note that the average age of males who start viewing pornography for the first time is 10 years old – an age where critical brain-development is still in the process (Hess, 2017). Therefore structural brain differences/damage could reflect consequences of pornographic use.
https://www.theroompsy.com/psychology-sex-identities-society/The%20Problem%20With%20Porn:%20Heteronormativity%20&%20Gender-roles

https://www.yourbrainonporn.com/

https://personandidentity.com/transgenders-connection-with-pornography-its-undeniable/

https://genspect.org/porn-the-great-identity-interrupter-no-one-wants-to-talk-about/

https://www.womenarehuman.com/pornographys-influence-on-transgenderism-the-proliferation-of-sissy-hypno-on-social-media/

https://www.widerlenspod.com/p/episode-179

https://lifehackerguy.com/how-to-do-dopamine-detox-the-right-way/

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How long do I have to retain before acquiring the powers?

Is a lot of the problem FOMO? (Fear of missing out). I feel like every day I spend not fapping is a day I could be spending fapping, like I'm "wasting" days by doing nothing. Anyone else have this issue?

>>40917431
Fair enough but lack of morning wood after 30 days could as well meant your t levels were low. And the other anon is right, it's still an excuse.

>>40917212
literally how being in the gym feels lately

>>40917401
nta
Agreed. Mastery of ones thoughts, words and deeds is the ultimate goal of all this.

>>40917633
Depends. Oldfag here and I start feeling it after about three weeks. By 3-4 months the internal power is palpable, I'm pretty much transmuting full time. With transmutation comes the "powers", like being able to dominate life or have things turn in my favor to an almost ridiculous degree. It's so different from my younger self that it's almost too much at times, almost a cognitive dissonance.

This should be the unofficial SR prayer

>>40917644
From the times that I have relapsed I've learned that jerking off is only good for the first couple of times when it's still novel- probably because that's the only time the biological mechanics of your brain being fooled into thinking you're actually fucking all these hot women. And after those first few jerks, by the second day honestly, it's just maintaining homeostasis. You NEED to jerk off just to feel normal- it's never as good as it seems while you're doing SR. It can't be, because you return to doing it ALL THE TIME. Something you do 2-4 times a day for your whole life can't possibly feel THAT good. It just seems that way now because the grass is always greener. This is the nature of addiction.

>>40917457
Thought it was just me. Had some intense orgasms with that actually. But it always felt like having sex with an entity rather than masturbation, I say that because I've never been as intensely passionate or turned on as much as that solo otherwise. It's good you didn't cum, I know how intense that can be.
Anyway, ways to prevent that I've found are wearing boxers to bed that are tight enough to stop a full erection but obviously loose enough for comfort, not drinking a lot of water before bed (or at least going to bed without pissing) and also not taking vitamins before sleep, especially zinc and B vitamins. Try not to day-time nap either, especially after eating a meal.

>>40917083 (OP)
Day 62 and in the past few days i'm waking up with dread/anxiety. Is this normal? It's like im losing motivation for some reason

>>40917833
Amen

I had an epiphany today at church.
I failed again, it's been about 2 years of seriously trying to quit porn and masturbation mainly through Christ and the word. I started watching porn since I was 11, I'm 26 now, in 2020 I started getting into some really fucked fetishes, mainly trans stuff. I always feel like I'm so far gone nothing can change my brain and the future of my life. Most I've retained is about 20 days in the last 2 years, some good streaks from there to there. Anyways, in Church I realized, why am I here? Why is my soul in such pain? How was it 3 years ago, did it even care of the porn I consumed? In that moment I started thanking God for his light, thanking him for coming down and showing me the right path; in work I just said the same thing today, a problem that can't be seen can't be solved. Same goes for a Socrates dialogue I read were he said that it's better for a man to he punished for doing evil since it helps redeem the most important part of him, his soul. Well now I know what the tears and the constant accusations of the holy spirit are. Now I'm aware of my problem, all the effects it has in my personality and soul that lead up with hardcore porn use and masturbation. Thank you God for showing me the way, for making me see, even if I'm too weak to work with you to fix it, I will never not thank you for what you've done.

I relapsed last night but I want to do things properly now. How do I ensure this does not happen again?
I'm thinking I should learn psalm 91 by heart and recite it whenever I get a lustful thought

>>40918148
>I relapsed last night
>How do I ensure this does not happen again?
Just don't relapse then LMAO

>>40918204
It genuinely feels like possession at some point
When you entertain the lustful thought instead of immediately thinking of something else, it takes root and completely invades your mind. I 100% believe in loosh harvesting

>the succubi are starting to appear through the avatars in the games I'm playing now
KEK, YOU WILL NEVER GET MY SEED WHORE

>>40918148
Try psalm 51 aswell

>>40918288
I recite this one every day during my evening prayer at least (and in the morning sometimes)
I've heard 51, 23 and 91 were the most "effective" overall but that 23 and 91 specifically targeted demonic activity

>>40917083 (OP)
I'm interactively learning about Unix/Linux, programming concepts. It is 100% more interesting than porn ever was. Keeps me busy.

>>40918208
>feels like
Right, as was mentioned above, there is an spiritual decay angle to porn, just be careful you are not deceiving yourself....oh I just relapsed because some demon made me do it....

>>40918292
https://www.orthodoxprayer.org/Compline/Compline.pdf

Try this brother, I do it every night and it’s been helping

>>40918575
Thank you friend

>>40918437
the vibe coder DESTROYS joomers

>>40918590
Wym joomer?

And vibe coders dont understand their code. I'm doing it from the ground up how dare you insult me like that

>what is joomer

>>40917083 (OP)
redpill me on that picture of jumping richard nixon

I'm getting restless.

I slept for like 1 hour and ended up with a wet dream and since then I've felt very restless since then. What the fucks happening?

i cant stop masturbating, i get brainrot horny whenever i see lust inducing pictures and it feels good when i do it

and i have many bad behaviours that stop me from becoming a God, such as doom scrolling, daydreaming for hours everyday

can someone fix me?

>>40917473
Even Jesus was tempted in the desert. It is women's job to tempt, it is your job to resist their temptations.

>>40918148
Change comes from within.

>>40918730
ANSWER ME

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>>40918804
Why are you trying to "become a God" when you can't even become a noncoomer.

>>40918730
I do get the day dreaming dude
this shit is so deep in my brain I dont know how to pry it out
I think the SR is making it easier for me to throw my willpower at it, I just catch myself daydreaming now and stop it as fast as possible
I hope after a few weeks of this I can just be a real person

the most important advice I think I could give to an anon here is never think of it like
>im not gonna jake it for a week, then its gonna feel better and maybe I can treat myself
think like
>im never touching my dick like that again, my entire life is going to get better soon and then I wont even need it
it takes a conviction beyond your physical desires, at least in my case it did

>>40917612
Amen brother.

I just had a horrible nightmare that had no connection to absolutely anything I did yesterday or in the past week, which I have never had in years, or if I have been having them I've been forgetting them. I have been having trouble sleeping with feelings of dread every night and if I have been having these types of dreams it'd explain why. I haven't been able to remember dreams for some time now and this is the first one that I could after a few weeks of SR.

The first half of the dream was framed as some sort of prologue to a Fallout game where you had to get supplies to a fallout shelter before the nukes dropped, but it was a foregone conclusion that you wouldn't be able to get the supplies to be able to meet the objectives before it happened, so you had to rush back to the shelter while the armageddon was starting and fighting off the authorities like the end of that one Farcry game. Once you got back though it was only matter of time to again gather supplies before you'd be visited by raiders in power armor and you had to get the hell out of there if you wanted to survive. Then it transitioned to like a DLC in a more urban area instead of a rural one, and the shelter was in a stadium, and the same scenario applied but I didn't take it seriously so I half-assed the resource collection and got back in time to be massacred. I hid in some random room while the NPCs gave the standard dialogue and just waited for the inevitable death but it was a glitched area so I just stayed there while my stats drained and nothing happened, and then that half of the dream ended. The most unrealistic part was that the game didn't crash while having photorealistic graphics.

>>40918848
The second half of the nightmare was just psychotic. It began as if I was watching an Operations Room style Youtube video about a massacre during the Vietnam War but it was a massacre that never happened. Some commander or politician decided to be an asshole and have his troops rolling around in tanks regularly as a psychological operation. A tank platoon decided to park in a plaza of sorts. They tried to set up a radio station in the main building in the square, but their equipment was broken, so they had to access some local phone line instead. However, they had the wrong codes for the day and couldn't communicate with their headquarters. One of the soldiers said a stereotypical line about how he has a bad feeling about the situation because he didn't properly carry out some rites for a family member a year ago. Then the military analysis essentially stopped as the unsuspecting tank platoon was ambushed by the Viet Cong in a civilian area and all hell broke loose, and the video just became a progression of gore images. Soldiers in covered in blood after getting shot at. Burned corpses at a dinner table. Dead bodies in chairs. Decapitated bodies including a women and children. A dead body on a ledge with its intestines blown out the back. It was worse gore than I'd ever seen pretty much anywhere including 4chan. The video was so disgusting I decided to close my phone but it was one of those Galaxy flip phones (I don't have one) and it kept playing on the back. Someone asked me what I was watching, I told them it was a Vietnam War documentary and they told me to turn it off since all of that's in the past.

>>40918851
Instead of continuing to watch the video I let it play in the background while looking up the Wikipedia article about the massacre, stopping before the gallery which had a massive black banner about how the images are Not Safe for Work or Life and that they were likely to cause psychological distress, and how these were chance photos taken by the soldiers that were found by their relatives after the battle who were just as traumatized by their contents. The last thing before the dream ended was that I switched back to the video and it was showing a photo of a massive blood spatter at the destroyed corner of a building, and one of the surviving soldiers or civilians was being interviewed and saying that what happened there was some VC were setting up a grenade trap but then this ARVN / US Army soldier lost it and decided to end himself and them with an anti-tank mine instead, and the person being interview was saying that he didn't understand if that guy thought he was some sort of hero for doing that or what. After that I woke up. That half of the dream was so bad, it was like every war crime in Vietnam was being crammed into one incident, and the amount of non-combatant death in violence circumstances was so extreme I was wondering whether it was actually about the Battle of Okinawa or something else, but again I haven't had any thoughts about either of these two topics at all for at least a week if not months. What's the lesson here from the Twilight Zone?

Satan is tempting me in new ways. I was able to defeat online porn, but in the bookclub I'm in, it seems that every book we are reading these days has some type of sex scene that arouses me.

I'll have to get good about skipping those scenes.

I was listening to an audiobook last night during a walk about my neigborhood and i literally had to start jogging in place so my boner would go down before anyone saw.

>>40918143

Love epiphanies like this. they happen a lot at church for me, too. thanks for sharing

I quit porn weeks ago after a dream of Jesus interrupting porn on a TV screen with images of the cross, church interiors, etc, and beautiful, otherworldly music unlike anything I had ever heard was playing with the only lyrics I remember being "Jesus".

I fell again not to porn but to AI-generated erotica fine tined to my interests. I have now quit that stuff for life too, because God cured my depression and to thank Him I will not look at this content again.

I am free. SR until I die.

I quit porn weeks ago after a dream of Jesus interrupting porn on a TV screen with images of the cross, church interiors, etc, and beautiful, otherworldly music unlike anything I had ever heard was playing with the only lyrics I remember being "Jesus".

I fell again not to porn but to AI-generated erotica fine-tuned to my interests. I have now quit that stuff for life too, because God cured my depression and to thank Him I will not look at this content again.

I am free. SR until I die.

Day 1.
WAGMI
Also, I'm getting in shape.

>>40919008
>Day 1.
lol

i just want to unload 2 months worth of nut in a sweaty pair of meaty flaps... why is that too much to ask for? boxers are a different breed, how the fuck do they do it while their test is at its peak? gonna keep going for as long as i can though, never felt so alive

>>40919049
Don't laugh at people who are trying, faggot. It takes a few streak attempts to get it right.

>>40919176
Day 1 nofap
Dick status: in my hand
Energy Drink status: in my other hand
Porn status: beamed into my eyeballs
Wifi status: blacked porn permeating my brain 24/7
Nofap in full swing, fellas. Discord server full of roleplaying crossdresseres grooming me won't affect me this time.

>>40919195
Go away kike

>>40919200
Downloading a new hentai game to edge to, my brain loves porn. Cooming feels so good, I can't wait until my next relapse it will feel so fucking good bros.

Just ignore them, lads.

>>40919233
dude if you're sexually repressed to the point where ignoring them is a discrete activity in your mind then you'd probably be better off gooning and this is coming from a staunch sr advocate lol

>>40917388
It makes it easier for me to deny lust when I haven’t even eaten food. Human need pyramid and all. Just like a period of dry fast makes me less hungry during a longer water fast. I haven’t been successful in either in a while though (life changes and I ran back to comfort) so I can’t comment on their compounded effects

I love being based and not a porn addicted jew golem

>>40919252
Shut up JIDF

>>40919397
ok you got me :^(

fuck it, imma mog the hog today if you catch my drift

there's no escape

>>40919252
NTA but i disagree. the proper mental habit of moving on mentally from a stimulant you don't want can be life-changing.

Day 1 starts now, bros. Going to edge in my cuckcage and slap my balls with a big black dildo until they're aching, then "accidentally" relapse, I'm going to be soooo disappointed

>>40919706
I wish we could use photoshop in real life

>>40919989
you can never "move on" from anything. if you think you can you're lying to yourself and denying an ugly part of yourself that you'll have to confront at some point. bottom line being don't indulge but also don't act like you're above it. can't tell you how many times i slipped up right after virtue signalling to myself that "i've finally beaten x addiction"... pride comes before the fall

>>40919213
Dry orgasm dreams are better.

I'm on day 47 of retaining, first streak to ever go over a month. I'm hoping the streak helps me with good fortune on my money in crypto stuff, and helps me eventually be able to astral project (I've tried for many months with no success yet)
Wish me luck anons

what's the proper way to do kegels if you're doing SR also?

>>40920359
Goodluck and godspeed my king. I'm 10 days behind you. Let's get it.

Planning on doing shrooms when I reach a month of semen retention, probably 2g of cubensis. Somebody have done this? Wanted to hear some stories.

Day 55. This is having the opposite effect on my investments and I'm down thousands of dollars. I'm coping with
>MaYbE It's tHe dEvIl jUsT TeStInG Me
but I have this general feeling of unease like perhaps I've made a big mistake.
On the other hand I don't feel as angry, afraid, or tense as I was before. When I was gooning it felt like I had to struggle through every tiny thing and the moment something went wrong I would melt down.

>>40920839
Day 62 and the past week has been hell i don't know why. Must be a flatline. Any elders can confirm?

>>40920839
Don't tell me you're putting money into the stock market or crypto shit.

>>40920839
How are you losing money while all the markets are at record highs

>>40920839
>if i don't cum i'll influence world markets
cmon bruh, SR is legit but this is just silly

>>40917531
>Just imagine them seething at every new anon discovering SR.

>>40917392
>Jesuits evil as fuck
Says who? Any proof?
Well they probably are evil now, just like most spiritual organizations that get hijacked over time, but Loyola was based and his stuff is some of the best in esoteric Christianity with actual method and practice. Padre Pio is another, but his stuff is more on the side of "just trust me bro, levitation!"

>>40917312
Thanks, bro. I had a good laugh. God bless you.

>>40917083 (OP)
I don’t keep count anymore but I’m nearing week 2 I think.
Last night spoke to God about my feelings and goals and justifications for these goals.
Been dreaming every night this week, sometimes multiple dreams, mostly ancestors and old friends.
Woke up this morning and meditated in the shed for an hour and overheard an apprentice and teacher in the yard over hammering some stakes.
Returned to sleep after meditation and had a vision of a woman I loved assuring me that in a few years we will reconnect when I reach out to her again after we’ve grown.
Even if this isn’t true it is gracious to receive a dream like this and I thank God for renewing my optimism.
I have been practicing semen retention for a few years and submit my testament to the lurkers that it is a transformative process towards individuation and fulfillment.
When I am walking on the street I consciously thought “I wish goodwill upon you” to all I saw and this renewed a dignity from within myself by the grace of benevolence.
My respects to Hermes, Artemis and Hecate and the rest of the pantheon as well as our creator and sustainer.

>>40917083 (OP)
Something I have noticed is that if you dont goon, seemingly all you want to do is goon, but if you do goon you wish with every fiber of your body that you didnt release. Idk if that makes sense but when im on SR my mind wants to masturbate a lot but if I relapse then I intensely wish I never did. Im starting to lose the urge to masturbate since im just gonna be wishing I never did for several weeks afterwards

>>40919008
Weren’t you at day one yesterday? Did you relapse?

>>40921671
Weren’t you jewish yesterday? Did you suck an infant’s mutilated penis?

>Day 3
>Dreams I used to have 10-15 years ago are slowly returning
>The good dreams, the ones that are much more wholesome
>Treat people with a lot more kindness in the dreams rather than resentment or hate
>Nightmares have almost entirely disappeared
>Slowly becoming more lucid as well
Is there a legitimate explanation for this? I thought it would've been the opposite with how pissed off my body was for fighting against it. It's like my body hates it, but my soul is thanking me.

>>40922062
Your body is absorbing vital nutrients instead of wasting them.

By abstaining, your semen travels up the spine and starts to heal your brain.

>>40917101
porn doesn't have strong addictive qualities.

I wonder what it would be like to live in a society where there was widespread, mainstream denial of the addictive qualities of heroin, for example.

>>40922300
He would probably cope by saying it’s not physically addictive in that there’s no “withdrawal” symptoms but we all know it’s a shill anyway

>>40922284
Shalom

>>40920848
Uhh yeah im on day 65 and im texting all of these ex flings. Yeah im struggling right now.

>>40918148
buy more will power.

>almost lost my streak yesterday but somehow made it through
Bruh not only did I eat late at night more calories than I usually do but I had almost started jerking off. Fucking /gif/ was open
Dunno what came over me
Thank God I didn't and came to my senses.
Still angry about the food though

What a slippery slope

>>40922908
Overeating and lust are tightly related
There's a reason why monks advise we fast as a way to combat lust

>>40922923
It was easy to abstain while fasting, but as soon as I broke my fast all of the lust came on at once. It was probably because I didn't break it with a small meal, I just ate whatever I wanted afterwards. Maybe I'll just eat one meal every 3 months like a snake.

Anyone else noticing themselves becoming power hungry and having to fight that urge on this journey? Like an unhealthy sense of wanting to mog and have your way? Any words of advice to avoid this behaviour without inverting and having a martyr complex? Seems like there's no inbetween for me... either I'm afraid of stepping on toes and making others uncomfortable and make myself smaller; or everyone becomes an obstacle and I am determined to take up more space like no tomorrow.

>>40917083 (OP)
How can I recover from a relapse ?

is all progress lost ?

>>40923251
definitely, except for the resistance part. i say embrace it, power is really the only thing humans strive for and you're no different from everyone else in that regard. personally i find myself speaking my mind a lot more which makes people either completely gravitate to me or take on a combative attitude and shun me, no inbetween. don't guilt trip yourself over being in your natural state. also coincidentally the people i get on really well with don't watch porn and don't jerk off often so there's that lol

This is my first time doing SR and I'm on day 14. I almost immediately noticed my depression was mostly gone and I have more energy. It's been difficult to resist temptation, but I'm staying on this path. I'm looking forward to seeing more benefits as I get a longer streak. Even if I don't get the magnetism and such, it's absolutely worth it to have a healthier mind.

Does anyone else here doesn't feel the benefits, and it gets worse as the days pass? The best of me is 1-5 days of SR. After that it's depression thoughts, hopeless, more sleeping hours, more shy, voice stutters sometimes, more tired. While I'm turbocooming IDGAF about anyone, about any situation, what people think and still can look people in the eye, but feel drained.

>>40923875
Perhaps the balance there is once per week.

Fucking hell, 3 week streak ended by getting milked by a fucking demon again. In my dream it changed shapes constantly to try to lure me and in the end even thanked me and gave me a kiss. I'm so pissed off, feel tired and got massive headache from all this. I've been dreading this moment for a while and I know that once I get back on track it will worry me again.

>>40923880
Either I get a good gf through these rough days or endure it until I get in a better shape. I don't know if these feelings that I have are the flatline though.

>>40923913
Those mfs this night made me dream about searching porn, and I was close to start the fap, but my mom came in and she was looking at my tabs, and I was desperately closing them, but there were so many of them, and I got to my senses and woke up. Shit was almost real.

>>40921671
Yes, I accidentally cummed on Friday while jerking off. But, check this out, I'm on day 2 today.

It has been at least a few weeks since I have had any sort of release. This whore last night was so, so absurdly attractive, and all over me. It is the morning now, and I'm still having thoughts about her. Please God, help me overcome my lust, and help all of the other souls on this journey of abstinence, even though we are all unworthy sinners.

>>40923953
What are you even doing in these threads? You're not retaining, just edging and posting how much you fap, I remember you posting about keeping record how much you masturbate and you had jerked off more times than there were days into this year. Didn't you have longer streak while ago? Did you just edge during all that time or didn't you notice how much better life is without constantly being under influence of porn? I hope you get it together. Also, why namefag? Have you got no shame?

>>40921461
I would recommend you read religious scripture, whatever appeals to you. You need something to concentrate on, something that makes your mind yearn for more, i.e. becoming closer with God. Good luck.

>>40920824
I had a strong mushroom trip with friends about a month ago. It was nice. Personally, I prefer tripping alone because I prefer to think my own thoughts. Yes, I recommend it. And being clear-minded as possible is recommended for a trip so retaining is a good idea.

>>40924143
Fact is I'm using biokinesis to make my dick bigger, so I need to masturbate everyday to measure my progress. That's why I keep failing nocum, or else it'd be a breeze.

>>40924173
Wouldn't it be easier to manifest a girl with a small vagina?

I sorta gave up on srg but despite touching myself i noticed that i did not spill anything for an entire week which i rarely managed while actually trying srg.

How do i convert into also stopping said touching also without becoming too blinded and loosing again?

>>40924202
one 'also' too many but you get what i mean right?
Most people i see talking about tapering off say do a release in x amount of days and stuff but i sorta stopped cold turkey with that but not really at the same time.

>>40923348
>is all progress lost ?
No, your progress would only be lost if you went back to cooming as frequently as you did before attempting SR.

>>40924202
The fact is, it's a slippery slope. That's why it's easier for most to completely abstain. To release once a week, or better, once a month, then you could do that and see if it works for you. The key will be to do it without lust, rather just as a chore to release pressure and painful feeling in your balls. Part of SR activity for me has been recognising how my body and mind reacts and sensing what is best for me.

>>40924241
>To release once a week, or better, once a month, then you could do that and see if it works for you.
Did almost a year without touching and i want it to be even longer this time. Im only like 90% there to actually stopping since it was never about the release in the first place. I just don't see many experience reports from people like me so i don't know.
>how my body and mind reacts and sensing what is best for me.
idgaf what my instincts tell me in this matter. Its all tainted and not real anyways unlike logic. Hence coming completely clean like before again. Anything less is cope.

>>40917083 (OP)

lifes good.

>>40924202
oh, they are in plain sight lol. I see you.
what is the next step?

>>40924367
whatcha mean?
Im asking for help but don't see too many in my position so info is scares. Been struggling with this for all my life too but i can confirm that semen retention is absolutely real from my sadly limited experience.

>>40924377
What do you seek help with friend?
ask and you shall receive?

>>40924385
I dunno really how to put it into words. Im just on a different path than most and i don't feel like most techniques apply to me, for example i can't taper off orgasms because there are none already, but its not real SR either.
Im just so far gone its weird. Been trying two years to do SR but masturbation and my addictions morphed into an different direction instead. I hope this doesn't sound too shizo and ranty and that i made myself clear now.

>>40924488
Just, how do i real non-touching SR basically. Most books and advice is just from another perspective than mine.

This is going to sound stupid but I think I just experienced my first magnetism. I know shopkeepers are meant to be nice but this woman was nicer than usual and had a different more softer spoken voice with me than usual.

It's been 30 days when do I gain the ability to talk to animals

>>40924626
it took me 8 months but I too now can speak to animals.

>>40924689
cont. I also drink 1 50ML bottle of jaeigermeister over a period of like 1month+ for self control discipline over alcohol. I practically just wet my lips and do not sip it. It's a great monk discipline I have invented for myself. And im not even an alcoholic.

>>40923875
>>40923916
Five days is basically nothing and yes, its most likely flatline symptoms you are feeling.

>>40923875
The post-orgasmic hangover lasts at least 2 weeks, so you can't really expect any improvemnent before 2 weeks pass.

>>40920068
i agree, but...
>an ugly part of yourself that you'll have to confront at some point
care to expand on this? everything everywhere preaches this, i.e. Jung saying to incorporate your shadow or subconscious or it'll rule your life and you'll call it fate, yadda yadda.
but the million dollar question is, what does this mean? how does one do this? staring in the mirror and admitting my darkest fetishes to myself every morning? this is where all the wisdom and advice goes silent.

>>40923956
>sinners
maybe so, debatable
>unworthy
quit that shit. i'm all for christian/catholic values, but referring to yourself as some weak, defiled, unworthy human just because you were born this way is pretty fucking retarded

>>40923953
>i accidentally cummed


>while jerking off
Uhhhhh what did you expect to happen???

>>40925223
You are very clearly not "all for Christian/Catholic values". Furthermore, sometimes things seem retarded when we don't understand them.

For those of you who lose your streak from rationalizing that you're reducing prostate cancer risk, I got this response while chatting with AI:

>The science on masturbation and prostate cancer is mixed and far from certain.
>Many health authorities point out that other factors — diet, exercise, avoiding smoking, keeping a healthy weight — have much clearer, stronger evidence for reducing risk.
>Meaning: you could probably protect your prostate and lifespan in other ways without sinning.

So eat good and exercise, that will reduce your prostate cancer risk way more than fapping will.

>>40925155
yeah that's true, people parrot jung to no end in hopes of sounding educated. what i meant was that you can't run away from the tainted side of your personality and act like your spirit has been purified just because you dammed the streams of perverted thoughts.
>how does one do this? staring in the mirror and admitting my darkest fetishes to myself every morning?
not necessarily lmao, for me it just took a simple recognition: no matter how much progress i make with celibacy or any endeavor really, be it battling another addiction or more casual stuff like becoming more outgoing and talkative for instance, i can always revert back to square one needing no justification at all. the choice to appease the death drive will always be there and there's nothing to stop me from doing it yet i don't do it. to circle this back to sr, if you've been clean for months or even years, it doesn't mean a whole lot if the ostensibly overcome urge to fuck hookers or jerk off 5x every day (like i used to sadly) is submerged in your mind and you behave like you're born again, unshackled from your past vices. if you do that, your dick will lead the way even more so except you will be completely unaware of it until it fucks your life up

>>40925155
>>40925376
sr has made me more creative and curious about the world, much like when i was a kid but i also crave and talk about women a lot more. for me the key was to embrace the latter a bit more and to stop acting like that's what i don't need. this is just my personal experience. i feel like there's a somewhat sour attitude towards women in this general but now that i think about it, my perspective is pretty commonsense, it just took me a lot longer to come around than it should have lol

>1 month on SR
>go to the gym
>use the exercise bike
>max out the tension
>"this feels too easy, the bike must be broken"
>try another bike
>also max out the tension
>it feels the same
>aren't even tired after I get off
>"maybe they're both broken"
>weigh in this morning
>I burned enough calories to drop 1.5 pounds (between the calories and water weight)
>realize that I have become too powerful for the exercise bike
You too can become great

>>40924173
Again, you have compulsion to masturbate yet you post in semen retention thread, do you get off from the shame?

>>40917083 (OP)
Haven’t posted In a long time, 4+ months. Thought I’d drop my insights. Semen retention is more accurately referred to as sperm retention, which is the meaningful substance here. Your body’s biggest necessity is the ability to knock a bitch up at any hour of any day. Meaning being without sperm will be treated more severely than non life threatening wounds. If I cut myself everyday and reopened the cut when it started to heal it would have similar effects and arguably lesser to constantly ejaculating. Semen, to my understanding is the mucus like substance that the sperm is delivered within. Having non ejaculatory sex and masturbation will release some semen but it isn’t nearly as bad as losing sperm. It doesn’t tax the body very much to blow your nose similarly. Sperm clearly requires much more nutrients and effort to produce. If you remove the guilt you’ll notice that you can goon for 3+ hours straight and feel 10x better the next day compared to 30 seconds of masturbation followed by ejaculation. For the non single men this is a huge life upgrade, if you retain sperm you can have hours of unprotected sex with your woman daily with an insane erection. This simply isn’t possible if you aren’t retaining. Look into the connection between relationship satisfaction and good sex or experience it for yourself, this is a life cheat code (in yet another way). None of this is disparaging clean streaks and abstinence at all, if that’s what you want to do, do it.

>>40925660 (cont)
The other thing id urge everyone here to do is branch off into other similar disciplines as soon as possible. Artificial blue light and lack of real sun exposure/ poor circadian rhythm is just as insidious as pornography and masturbation addiction. Don’t believe me? Turn your screens to a red filter (no blue light) and don’t use any artificial lights except for red ones or candles. You’ll find a presentness and intelligence
you’ve never felt before after the initial agony of it. Most internet content people watch isn’t even truly enjoyable, everyone knows this. it’s just captivating enough to act as a vessel for the real drug, blue light. I’ve chalked artificial blue light up as the reason for zoomers being essentially zombies, seeing the ways I’ve changed when I got rid of it. Look into Jack Kruse for more info on that, and let me know of any other life gains I’m missing out on.

>>40925223
>values
Right, I agree, but please, wise up, pay attention to what you are replying to:

>40923956
>I had sex last night "with a whore"
>>40925358
>b-but muh values!!!

>>40925223
It's The trolling will only get stronger if it's receives food, just deny the yous, ignore, or block/hide using the extension x

>>40924208
>>40924241
>>40924367
stop replying to gooning ads posts
stop.feeding.the.trolls

>40925376
>I have to never stop cleaning my house because it never stops being dirty
cool logic bro...
>40920068
>pride comes before the fall
now just where have I read something similar

>>40925755
Everybody makes mistakes.

>>40921731
Shut the fuck up you retarded faggot. If anyone in this thread is sucking a baby’s dick, it’s you.

>>40920359
Good luck brother, I’ve been praying to be able to astral project lately. Maybe I’ll say a prayer for you as well.

>>40922923
Of course, it’s all about indulgence. If we indulge in one thing what makes us believe we wouldn’t indulge in another.

>>40923953
Hell yeah, keep going man, you got this.

>>40919073
Do you work out? You expel your energy and you’re still horny after but you’re physically tired enough to occupy your mind with something and ignore the urge. If you don’t work your body you’re letting the energy pool in your coom urges, since that’s the only available physical and mental release

>>40925492
Stair master and incline treadmill joggihng is calling your bame

>>40917083 (OP)
Relapsed after 8 days. I had to do it, I was starting to be very conflictive, and angry.

>>40925660
wolf in sheep's clothing
safely ignore this (((gooning promoter)))

Daily update
On day 4, going really well so far. Making progress.

>>40925660
>edging is okay


No its not dumbass

Day 300 (two WD's at day 30 and 80)

Quit coffee for good 100%. It's so awful the effect it has on your energy and lust. Completely counterintuitive to be consuming caffeine on SR.

>>40926281
right? this guy is a mossad shill

>>40924557
Nah man, it's alright, I believe you. I'm in the same situation as you, but a little worse. I still haven't managed to deal with attachment issues, which means I'm confused by this "kindness" and interpret it as signals for something more.
The bad thing is I made this mistake before and tried to make a move on my subordinate at work. It didn't end well and I regret it to this day, even though it happened a few years ago. I still can't forgive myself. The accident was tough even for amateurs, cause she laid down on my couch, so it felt like a reasonable move to try my chances.
So I decided not to do anything like this again. No first moves from me until I'm sure the signals are real and not something else. I know that moment will never come, so I've been trying to accept a monk's mindset and convince myself that this is the way I want.
But the flesh is weak. I can lie to myself and try to do divine things like celibacy, but the reason for my 30+ day run now is her, that random shopkeeper. I understand my mistake, but I keep making it. Unfortunately, the shop is right next to my home, so during her shifts I go there more and more often. And every time I see these signals. She is very friendly with me, very polite, always says goodbye. She remembered what I usually buy and talks to me about it. But I can’t be sure if this is anything more than simple politeness. She is too young, only about 20, she hasn’t seen the world yet.
This is my first serious SR run in life. I knew about the benefits 10 years ago, in my 20s. On my first 21-day run I found my first long-term girlfriend. SR was random, I was just busy with life in my uni years. I lost her due to fapping after a few years. The second run was while on SSRI, I managed ~80 days and found my second girl. Libido was low, SSRIs affected it, so I can't say that was a legitimate streak, cause I edged and wasn't able to coom.
(1/2)

>>40924557
>>40926299
(2/2)
Eventually I forgot about it. Then I stopped drugs and lost that girl too, again due to fapping. The last one, 40 days, was due to divine intervention. God touched me and blessed me. I believed in Him, so He believed in me. But I lost Him after a month.
But this time it's my turn. This is my first conscious run. I'm scared that the reason is a woman, just a random shopkeeper. I'm still recovering my faith, I still want to be with Him, but the root of the run is her. I'm not young or pretty anymore. I'm in my 30s, fat, poor and blackpilled. I can still talk, I’m still charming, but I'm just a shadow of my past. I'm trying to switch the goal from her to God, but the flesh is weak. The last few days were hard, I edged for hours, but at the last moment dragged myself outside to clear my mind. Literally dragged, pulling myself from the PC. It takes 30-60 minutes outside to calm down.
Unfortunately, I will fail. The goal was set wrong. You shouldn't focus on external things. Remember Solomon's parable about the passing of things. It will pass. Everything will pass. But all things still affect you. So it's better to focus on yourself and work on yourself for your own sake, not for someone else. I will endure as much as I can, but my end is already written.
The reason I'm writing this is to advise you to clear your mind of worldly things and focus on your own being and spiritual connection. You will understand me when the time comes. The rest will come by itself.
The great yogi Swami Vivekananda wrote about the phenomenon this way:
"When you renounce nature you find that she takes an interest in you. When you renounce her a little more, she begins to chase you. And when you finally don't care for her at all, she becomes your slave." Paraphrased, from "The Yogas" by Swami Vivekananda Another way of stating the law is thus: When you become entirely devoted to the Lord of Creation, All of creation becomes
devoted to you. And this is the last test.

>>40917843
> I've learned that jerking off is only good for the first couple of times when it's still novel- probably because that's the only time the biological mechanics of your brain being fooled into thinking you're actually fucking all these hot women

I remember my first fap, biggest ecstacy of pleasure I've ever felt mixed with a lot of shame, as if something was robbed and wrecked me internally, I even asked my father not so soon after if it was something people normally did, the answer "reassured" me and peaced my mind.
Now it feels too normal and many times uninteresting.

>>40926154
I already started stair master I imagine I am climbing to heaven when I'm doing it

>>40925660
>If you remove the guilt you’ll notice that you can goon for 3+ hours straight and feel 10x better the next day compared to 30 seconds of masturbation followed by ejaculation.
as someone who retained for 2 years and gooned quite regularly, i can say without a shadow of a doubt this is absolutely false. the dopamine rush/dump is akin to that of doing synthetic stimulants. there's nothing good or healthy about gooning for 3 hours just because you don't release
>t. was gooning for hours and never released for 2 years and fried my brain/nervous system more than when i was jerking off + cumming

Today is day 66 on semen retention. For the first time on this streak I became super close to relapsing and peeked at porn yesterday. I made a fetlife account and was looking up all of the local whores looking for something that was going down. Texted a few old flings, the ones that responded told me to fuck off and to move on with my life. Didn’t goon at least. I deleted fetlife last night and tinder. I had an account active for about 8 hours. Thought about going to an asian massage parlor. Somehow last night I snapped out of it. I also bought $50 in supplements that are supposed to enhance the effects of SR, L theamine, Zinc, L arginine, Lecithin, Iodine, Maca. Yeah. Hopefully I move forward with a clearer head and intentions. I need to get more into exercising. The weekends are really difficult for me. I work a well paying physically demanding job so the weekends days are usually a piece of cake. For some reason these past five days have been a bit of a struggle mentally. I REALLY dont want to relapse. I feel the boost in energy, mood, a more stable attitude and I need all of that for my life. I cannot afford to go back tonthe old me for five seconds of a dopamine hit. I cannot afford to compromise my mind and body like I have done for decades. I am in my thirties and I cannot bounce back like I did in my twenties. In your thirties your stupid decisions have more of a direct effect on your mind, body, demeanor, everything. Hold the line retainers WAAGTMI! If you relapse, dont wallow in guilt, just lace up and get back on the wagon because it’s part of the process. WAAGTMI!

>>40926299
>No first moves from me until I'm sure the signals are real and not something else. I know that moment will never come
quit that thinking. just drop that shit. feeling sorry for yourself because you made moves on a girl x YEARS ago and she rejected you is absolutely pathetic. rejection is just a part of life. we all make mistakes. but contorting your life to continue wallowing in self pity because you couldn't handle the moment of painful rejection is absolutely pathetic.
>>40926319
>more blackpill doomer mindset bullshit
jesus, nevermind. get help kid. quit reading philosophy and spiritual shit all day looking for reasons to keep feeling sorry for yourself.
>but i'm in my 30s, i'm not a kid
you're a child. get help.

>>40926364
>you're a child
You're right, I'm not arguing with that. I didn't want to sound like a crybaby, sorry if it came off that way. I just wanted to show the damage this mindset can do and maybe warn other anons about it.

>>40926343
>the ones that responded told me to fuck off and to move on with my life. D
Kek
Based whores

>>40926382
Yep! I am grateful to them.

>>40926343
>I made a fetlife account and was looking up all of the local whores looking for something that was going down. Texted a few old flings, the ones that responded told me to fuck off and to move on with my life. Didn’t goon at least. I deleted fetlife last night and tinder. I had an account active for about 8 hours. Thought about going to an asian massage parlor.
Bro you were throwing matches at a pool of gasoline

Making a lot of changes to my life soon. Gonna start a new streak.
>>40925360
I always found myself relapsing due to stress and the occasional depressive streaks I would find myself in.

>>40925660
>>40925668
interesting

Be honest with me, is semen retention legit or is it just one big cope?

>>40923913
>>40923919
Two nights ago I got something similar.
In the dream it's like you are under a spell and irl discipline is completely gone. Regardless, I was able to fight it and wake myself in time.

233 Days sober,
>>40927158
It's both

>>40926319
I understand your struggle brother but you need to lose the fear. Fear is nothing but holding you back and for no reason. You're a man, understand that. Don't worry about your age or wealth, people are always stuck in shit situations but how you define yourself is what really matters and you are a good man just trying to find his way in life. Take the shot, ask her out next opportunity you get. You have nothing to lose brother if she says no you're exactly where you are now. Just believe in God, yourself and always try if you want something. I'm the shopkeeper guy.

i've been retaining for about 5 weeks now, and it's just slapping me in the face how insidious everything in society is with porn being in plain sight. i just found out today that they named a major news network in Britain after the BLACKEDRAW art films I used to goon to. now everytime i watch the news i see that BBC logo, and can't help but think the archons are laughing as they purposely named a news corp after a porn reference

>>40926378
quit reading spiritual literature and philosophy all day and using it as reinforcement to stay in the same mental place. all of that stuff is supposed to break you out of your mold, not support it.

>>40917083 (OP)
how do i make the days go by faster
im on day 6 and i honestly just wanna be on day 90 or even just day 60 already because of all the stories I hear of people becoming superman or something on day 60+

>>40927639
>people becoming superman or something on day 60+
Nobody becomes superman, or something, on day 60+, you need to add two zeros to that at least.
Nice though, shill.

>>40927670
it was an exaggeration retard people just talk about their benefits and act like they became superman

>>40927639
day 198 here. i experienced my first "women making themselves known to me" magnetism this week

>>40917496
I live about 20 mins from where Zyzz is buried.
Might go visit him for some inspiration

>>40925765
It's not replying, it becoming aware of the weaponization of psychology and porn to push a motive.

Really analyze that picture posted. Look at everything in the frame outside of the book held.

It's a nod to the system.

it's not worth it
it's not worth it
it's not worth it
it's not worth it
it's not worth it
it's not worth it

>40927670
>40927685
>superman
oh we see through your demoralization

>>40926845
>I always found myself relapsing due to stress
That used to be my excuse but it was just a vicious habit, like how people smoke when they're stressed because nicotine can give temporary stress relief and then they become dependent on it.

>>40927639
>how do i make the days go by faster
>wanting the days to go by faster
SR slowed time down for me if anything so that I am able to do more in a day than before

The semen is your blood. The semen is your life. Your semen is LIFE-FORCE. Without semen we die. Without semen there is no babies. Without semen there is no world. Emptying your load into napkin is the same as draining blood out your body. Now your body has to go in overdrive to produce more blood, your energy levels lower, your testosterone falls off a cliff. Stop before it's too late.

>>40927639
You will have more energy and be more productive so focus more on your halal hobbies or interests whenever you’re not studying or working. Superman is probably a hyperbole. I am on day 66 and im struggling a lot, I am also a complex and flawed human unfortunately. As men, our weakness for lust will always be with us but the good news is we 100% have the ability to control that temptation and utilize sexual transmutation and flow that energy into something productive. Whether it’s learning a new language or getting your wife pregnant. In other words there’s no way to speed up time but keeping yourself busy is going to be your best tool for SR. Take care God speed WAAGTMI.

Anybody else gotten to a point where porn/jerking off doesn't even really feel that great anymore, yet you're still stuck doing it? I've been doing it since 2011, and have had a few decent streaks in the last five years, but just in the last year or so, porn has officially lost its ability to really, truly arouse me. Like it destroyed me, wiped me out, and yet the cooming still releases dopamine so I still have to do it. On Day 4 now, this time has got to be the time I give it up for good, there's nothing else left for me.

>>40928127
The girls are no longer attractive these days, the real hot ones do OF now, and that's always extreme crap for their subscribers.

>>40928127
They say that the strength of humans is to control nature. Like I understand that nature created men with an addiction to holes and fat in the breasts. but now we must control ourselves and therefore control nature too. like our ancestors did ..
The fire is now the internet. We must use it intelligently.

it just hole and boobs after all...

>>40927732
based

>>40928226
>The girls are no longer attractive these days
I wonder why

5 day streak ended, had to relieve the unbearable pressure. Aiming somewhere between 1-2 weeks this time. Something fucking weird though, when I came it was really pasty/chunky. Anyone else had this shit before? What exactly would've caused this? I had another 1-2 faps after that just to completely clear my system, but those were fine and liquid like it's supposed to be. Only the first one had that problem

>>40928127
>Anybody else gotten to a point where porn/jerking off doesn't even really feel that great anymore, yet you're still stuck doing it?
>but just in the last year or so, porn has officially lost its ability to really, truly arouse me.
>Like it destroyed me, wiped me out, and yet the cooming still releases dopamine so I still have to do it


Alcohol is "bad" for you, but there's an art to it, some people don't understand the "art" and have a very bad time on alcohol. As to my case, I was having TOO much fun on alcohol so I had to stop. You can apply this to porn as well, some people goon everyday and live fulfilling lives and some people goon and it destroys their entire outlook on life. Does any of this make porn good? Of course not. You're better off not doing it. But stop generalizing things and putting people in a specific box. Just because (You) had a bad time, doesn't mean EVERYBODY else had a bad time.

>>40928226
There's no hot chicks anywhere anymore, not in TV,movies,music, commercials and even porn. Only on social media.

>>40928417
>I had to
>to completely clear my system
Pure cope. You're a coomer.

>>40928725
You're the one coping, and also the clearing the system thing was referring to after the first fap. I'm starting small streaks then building up, if I was a coomer I wouldn't even be bothering to do that in the first place. Nice demoralization attempt though, shalom.

>>40928393
normies in a nutshell:
>you mean to tell me the world has always been a shithole run by freaky horny psychopath lizards from space? :OOOOOOOO

>>40928393
They are all men.

I don't get the concept of uncummed cum will be reabsorbed by the body. Isn't it like pee, at one point you have to release it otherwise it will pile up. I must be missing untold story by the celibates here.

coomed in my sleep 2 days in a row award

>>40928968
>does sperm get reabsorbed by the body if not ejaculated ?

ChatGPT :

Yes, sperm that is not ejaculated does get reabsorbed by the body.

Here’s how it works:

Sperm are produced in the testicles and stored in the epididymis, where they mature.

If ejaculation doesn’t occur, sperm typically remain in the epididymis for a few weeks.

After that, unused sperm are broken down and reabsorbed by the body. The components (like proteins and nutrients) are recycled and used elsewhere.

This is a completely natural process and happens regularly in people who are not frequently ejaculating. The body constantly produces new sperm, so there's a continuous cycle of production, maturation, and—if not released—reabsorption.

Let me know if you want details on how often sperm is produced or how long it lives in the body.

>>40928968
Sperms take about 75 days to fully mature. After that they get recycled in your balls such that you'll always have several fertile loads worth when you need to mate. Prostatic and seminal fluids just stay in the glands and vesicles once full, which takes about 3 days, then you stop producing.

>>40929066
>>40929083
I thought it would burst out. So the production will stop at some condition I guess.

>>40929066
So basically, not only do you have to do the initial few weeks for the absorption to start, but then even more time after that to get the continuous effects of the "recycling"

Am I understanding this correctly?

>>40929066
Is there any difference in fertility between "mature sperm" and newly produced

>>40928747
>>40929140
Look, SR is not an endure five days to bust a nut cycle, you fags might want to try nofap instead.

>>40928226
Because birth control ruined everything about them. Their minds and bodies

>>40929140
yes

>>40929219
I've read several times that there probably is and that mature sperm is more fertile, but I dont remember the sources nor the fiability of those sources.
You can try to ask ChatGPT or any ai

>>40928706
>Alcohol is "bad" for you, but there's an art to it, some people don't understand the "art" and have a very bad time on alcohol.
As a former almost AA, with all due respect, you are so full of it, you reek of cheap bourbon.
>As to my case, I was having TOO much fun on alcohol so I had to stop
Too much "art" until you misunderstood it, huh? Retard

>>40929443
I type cum on ai, all I get is cum? Pls hlp

>>40929445
>some people can handle the drink, some people can't
he's not wrong

>>40929428
Do you have stones in your ears cunt? I said I'm building up to longer streaks, ie longer than 5 days

>>40929443
You realize all the sperm you release is matured right? It takes 74 days for sperm to mature. And the youngest mature sperm is the most fertile. The longer you semen retent The more your sperm count goes down and the less healthy your sperm becomes. If you're trying to get a woman pregnant you have sex every 1 to 2 days you don't wait months and then nut in her.

>>40929640
>wait months and then nut in her
this is the best cause your splooge is like white chunky peanut butter mixed with motor oil

>>40924557
You are 1 billion percent looking into it too much. They were just being nice because it's their job. That's it if you think there's anything more you're completely delusional.

>>40929702
Lol nigga that isn't fertile nut.

>>40929702
>this is the best cause your splooge is like white chunky peanut butter mixed with motor oil
Cunt does that explain what happened here? >>40928417

Does holding the nut too long cause this to happen?

>>40929640
100% wrong. Both the man and the woman benefit from no sex/fapping 1 month before conceiving a child. They should both also stop taking any surplus drugs and try to eat healthy for that 1 month. And they should pick a favorable lunar phase to increase their child being male. You don't know ball.

>>40926150
i get the idea but i stay moving pretty much 12h a day and give it my all during workouts but i'm still not physically tired. in fact the more i move my body the hornier i get. also it doesn't help that it's summer and sweaty, barely clothed women are everywhere, it's a miracle i even got to this point

>>40929865
No there is no benefit to no fapping / no sex for one month before conceiving a child. There's literally multiple studies on this. The longer you semen in retent the less active and weaker you're sperm becomes. I'm all for semen retention but you don't have to lie to people. I think there is a benefit to semen retention. But it's just factually an accurate that it makes you more fertile it's literally the opposite.

>>40929913
Inaccurate*

>>40929913
>There's literally multiple studies on this. The longer you semen in retent the less active and weaker you're sperm becomes. I
Source??

>>40929927
Look up yourself retard Where's your source for your fucking retarded shit? I'm not your fucking teacher nor do I care if you think retarded shit I'm just telling you you're wrong do it what you want. From an evolutionary game theory perspective I hope you don't believe me so you don't reproduce or if you do it's garbage DNA.

>>40929951
lol u mad

>>40917351
This is correct

just relapsed and i have a placement test tomorrow. need to pull something out of the hat FAST because my focus feels gone.

>>40929988
Holding your semen in isn't paranormal. You likely pointlessly do it because you stink of shit.

>>40929988
Take a cold shower. Study as much as you can but DO NOT stay up all night, get 8 hours of sleep between today and tomorrow. Just do your best.

>>40929913
>multiple studies
Oh the same kind of studies that say circumsicion is good, fluoride is good, fapping is good for your prostate, and open borders are good for your nation? Those studies?

>>40929640
No, you want your sperm to be fully baked. Wankers give birth to wankers

>How is semen produced in the body?
The human body works in layers of fundamental "element components". These layers describe how and what the body is made up of at a high level.
All the layers are not just interconnected but also cyclical in nature.
The seven key layers in the body, in sequence, are:
>1. Consumption of food/juices
>2. Blood
>3. Muscles
>4. Fat
>5. Bone
>6. Bone Marrow
>7. Semen
>8. Ojas (or "The Light")

After food is consumed, each physical layer takes about five days to transfer to the next layer (i.e. from digestive system to blood, then muscles, etc) totalling to about 35 days until the 8th layer.

Each of the layers supports each other and has its defined "job" to do in the body.
Semen is like the horse-power of the body. Once semen is developed, Ojus comes into being. Ojus can protect against all forms of negative energies and diseases.

After every about 35-40 days this cycles helps make better of everything at every step (i.e. better digestion of consumed food, better blood, ect. Until powerful Ojas (meaning each day it creates certain amount of energy from the food consumed 40 days earlier to that day.)

Unless this cycle is broken (from semen ejaculation) everything keeps improving continuously.
So essentially once semen is ejaculated, it weakens all the above steps in the entire cycle, until semen is regenerated back properly, which takes its own time.

>Why bother retaining semen in the body?

Retention of semen in the body generates progressively increasing physical and mental strengths.
The body also starts getting smoother and shinier.
It increases the processing power of the mind, your ability to concerntrate will increase, memory improves.

When a man ejaculates, the first thing it decreases is the protective energy field that surrounds not just the body but also inside the body (it starts at the heart, goes all over the body, until the outermost layer of the skin, and then extends a few feed beyond the body.
This energy field (often called one's "Aura") cannot be seen by the naked eye, but it is what creates a certain kind of "glow" and "luster" around the body (by reflecting light).

The protective energy field and the shine it gets are primarily from long stored semen.
A weak protective layer also gets "thinner" and develops "pores" in it thus making it looke "darker" as it can't reflect back all the light, so the brightness of the body stars disappearing.

>>40930026
No no these studies are different than the studies that you just listed. These studies have to do with literally testing the sperm and it's ability to swim.

>>40929973
Not at all. You actually just boosted my confidence by responding so stupidly lol thanks.

>>40930030
Nah fully baked sperm gives you Asperger's and R9K users

>>40930064
Sperm from older men raises the chances of aspengers, not if your sperm is old. Old sperm is recycled, not wasted.

I need some motivation
By motivation I mean posts or videos that emphasize how destructive to the soul and dangerous it is to fall into lust
Please help

AI just summarized 17 studies for me. TLDR:
>long abstinence (7+ days) consistently produces more volume and way higher sperm count
>short abstinences produce higher average sperm motility, likely due to fresher seminal fluid (the fructose content etc.), but way less volume.
So it really doesn't matter. Not nearly as much as correcting your diet and substance abuse.
I have 3 healthy kids and I was retaining at least a month before conceiving each of them, literally on the first pump. We had 2 miscarriages and I believe it's because we timed it wrong and were pumping noob coom in multiple times up to when the egg dropped.

never goon
never edge
never coom

>>40929951
>ask for source
>get no source and anger instead
Are you even retaining

>>40930064
>still no source just some vague "studies"
(You)

>>40930602
>produce higher average sperm motility,
That means the sperm swim stronger

DAY 79

FUCK THE ANTICHRIST

WAGMI

MAY ALL BEINGS BE AT PEACE

>>40917174
This is called "One inch of progress and 1,000 demons rise to confront you, two inches of progress and the demons bow."

>>40930560
look at the faces of male porn stars while they're fucking
and then look in the mirror as you sit there rubbing your pee pee
if those two things don't save you, idk what to tell you

>>40930841
Yes we know. Its because there are way more sperms in the long-abstinence group, including slowpokes that pull down the average. The sperm quality metric to look at is called DNA Fragmentation, or DFI, and the studies don't consistently conclude one way or the other. Likely doesn't depend on abstinence length. Obviously if your'e abstaining and your balls come into contact with some enriched uranium, you probably don't want to conceive with that load.

>>40929087
Are you retarded? Did you even read the post you responded to. Both post say that the sperm will be reabsorbed. Not that your body will stop producing sperm.

>>40929219
I’ve heard mature sperm produce much healthier offspring.

>>40929640
Completely wrong, the more mature your sperm become the more healthy they are.

>>40929913
You should shut the fuck up, everything you’re saying is completely wrong. You have no idea what you’re talking about. You should educate yourself or SHUT THE FUCK UP.

>>40928706
>But stop generalizing things and putting people in a specific box. Just because (You) had a bad time, doesn't mean EVERYBODY else had a bad time.
I literally asked if anyone else had experienced that. The exact opposite of generalizing. I think you're so used to every single post on here needing to be in opposition to someone else that you manufactured a reason to tell me off.

Day 4 coming to a close bros. My goal is to get 30 days clean with no wet dreams. Then to get 90 without wet dreams. I ultimately wanna go to 1 year and beyond with minimal wet dreams though.

As a man, I don't need a woman to validate my worth. My sense of worth comes from within. I will not let other men see me as lesser because of my old low body count. To place that power in the hands of women is a dangerous and foolish game. Modern society is a joke.

Daily update
On day 5, going really well. Feelsgoodman.

>>40917083 (OP)
day 7. Sometimes i get aroused and get really hard, and sometimes i start leaking precum and my dick starts throbbing. Im not looking at porn or anything or edging this just happens when im very aroused. Is this bad? It makes me feel like a fraud to continue my streak, since I technically leaked semen, and it makes me feel guilty and bad if this happens (even if its just pre and i didnt ejaculate)

>>40932537
pre-cum isn't semen

>>40932551
ok good

>>40932537
>Sometimes i get aroused and get really hard, and sometimes i start leaking precum and my dick starts throbbing.
Start taking accountability for the lustful thoughts in your mind. Say a prayer or something to be free of them

>>40931170
Based

>>40931021
True

Day 23 when does it get easier

>>40931035
>look at the face of make pornstars

This sounds so fucking gay, but I was the one looking at their dicks. Porn is so fucking evil

I MUST NOT COOM

>>40917174
Happens all the time

start spreading the news

Has God and/or angels started talking to anyone else?

>>40932787
Sometimes i can hear my higher self giving me advice. I believe he is trying to get me back on track.

Is it true you can get aids from sr?

>>40932787
No, how exactly are they communicating with you

>>40932702
>This sounds so fucking gay, but I was the one looking at their dicks. Porn is so fucking evil
Now you are starting to understand how porn works.

My favorite sr meme. What's yours?

>>40932859
I already know how it works that’s why I’m here. You are starting to understand you’re not special

>>40932019
Take it one day at a time, keep it as clean as you can, avoid diuretics during night and empty that bladder fully before going to sleep.
You got this.

>>40932695
>when does it get easier
how many years did you spend in coombrain mode?

>>40932695
if i don't look at porn or anything remotely women related it's incredibly easy

>>40932872
>projecting
do you have a point?

>>40932801
By assembling thoughts out of chaos and inspiring actions out of dreams

>>40932874
>avoid diuretics during night
Thanks man. I actually have been off caffeine for about that same amount of time also, and the headaches have finally gone away thankfully. I feel pretty good about SR now that's ive conquered weed, alcohol, porn, and now caffeine. So only good and positive things coming to me now.

>>40932798
I have a theory about that that kind of circumvents the whole free will / determinism dichotomy, that we pre-destine our own fates if that makes any sense to you.

>>40932892
Dude, that's awesome!! Cheers!

These posts should be banned on this board. Sick of seeing this spam. It's just pathetic cringe retard-tier incel horse shit. 100%. Go do something real and worthwhile with your fucking limited time, you stupid cunts

>>40932866
That’s pretty good

>>40932882
You’re starting to understand it. Keep working, you’re just getting started

>40930560
>Please I need some motivation
>Please I need to be shown the dangers of lust
>40932702
>P-porn made me look at their dicks!
>40932872
>Oh I already knew
>40932961
>even more out of place defensiveness

So it's in plain sight you really have no frigging idea how porn does work, and you are here just to farm undeserved and well intended advise and derail and demoralize the thread.
Grow.the.fuck.up.

>40933001
This guy is just starting of course but I think he’s starting to just begin the earliest stages of understanding

>>40932932
>incel
It can't be involuntary if it's voluntary

Also why are you so concerned with other people not spilling their seed? Could it be that you see these people as a threat to your corruption that you seek to spread throughout the world? Why do people who refuse to partake in your degeneracy scare you so much?

i haven't coomed since may. when does my life get good?

>>40933254
It’s already good brother, take a look around.

>>40933374
i have and it's exactly the same. which to me indicate that retention had little to no effect.

>>40933648
because you are edging

My gf is a semen drainer. She’s horny as fuck daily and gets sad/pissy when I don’t have sex with her. What can I say to convince her?

Anyone here taking Ashwagandha? I want to know how it interacts when going on long streaks. Is it going to make me unbearably horny?

>>40933944
>My gf is a semen drainer.
Then you literally won at life. The only reason to start on SR is if you're single.

>>40934222
>The only reason to start on SR is if you're single.
If you're some kind of materialist redditor perhaps

Aids

>>40933944
If you've been following these threads for a while you'd know what to do. You should look into sexual tantra, how to fuck without cumming. See how she reacts, you get partner for life or she finds someone else to rob. Either way you win.

Bread?

Day 5, woke up with a little bit of a wet dream :/ hopefully the next one isn't as frequent