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I don’t keep count anymore but I’m nearing week 2 I think.
Last night spoke to God about my feelings and goals and justifications for these goals.
Been dreaming every night this week, sometimes multiple dreams, mostly ancestors and old friends.
Woke up this morning and meditated in the shed for an hour and overheard an apprentice and teacher in the yard over hammering some stakes.
Returned to sleep after meditation and had a vision of a woman I loved assuring me that in a few years we will reconnect when I reach out to her again after we’ve grown.
Even if this isn’t true it is gracious to receive a dream like this and I thank God for renewing my optimism.
I have been practicing semen retention for a few years and submit my testament to the lurkers that it is a transformative process towards individuation and fulfillment.
When I am walking on the street I consciously thought “I wish goodwill upon you” to all I saw and this renewed a dignity from within myself by the grace of benevolence.
My respects to Hermes, Artemis and Hecate and the rest of the pantheon as well as our creator and sustainer.