>>40917273
>I think I just need to leave the internet so I stop seeing any of it
Do it.
>but this is my one source of socialization these days almost.
Still do it. Sorry to break it to you but posting on a board is not the type of genuine social interaction that humans are hardwired for. Every bit of comfort you indulge that keeps you stagnant, keeps you from improving your life is nothing but ice cream, and you're a big fat fuck. You don't need it. You're going to feel worse before you feel better.
What you think of as a "lifeline", the thing you do when you're bored that's keeping you from total abject despair, adds no real value to your life at all. Go and meditate, and if you find it very hard, that means you need to do it. Just go sit and think about nothing for a few hours in the dark, I'm completely serious. You don't need this retarded bullshit distraction. DO NOT LOOK AT PORN OR JERK OFF!
