>>40916807
>I fucking hate this shit. I hate that I've been addicted to this shit since I was a kid and that I'm actually fucking brain damaged as a result of it.
Yeah it sucks I remember as a kid I used to have so much energy and be curious about everything and was even able to get ahead of schoolwork and then I discovered PMO. I thought it was just a harmless activity like the internet said that made me feel really good. Meanwhile over time I lost the energy and the diligence and the drive to learn, and replaced it with a habit of getting off to new porn every day. I fell into depression and developed this feeling of imposter syndrome, that my abilities were somehow fraudulent, and that cost me years of my life and scores of lost opportunities. After 4 weeks on SR I feel like 5 to 8% of that childhood optimism and if I truly want to turn my life around I have to manifest that into a year or more. I finally get that line from Jesus that "except ye be converted, and become as little children, ye shall not enter into the kingdom of heaven." I've been such a fool all this time Lord, forgive me, since the fruits of righteousness are unlike and more excellent than all the base pleasures the world lures the innocent into destruction with. Amen.