Just a gentle reminder that there is only ever one FIRST CM in the game and you LOST it

You can cope and stay in denial, tell yourself that you don't care, that you got over it, but you and I both know that you feel bad about it.
That you think back to those last few moments where your ace got passed
That you regret not trying just a bit harder
That the empty title slots upset you
That you feel jealous of me and other people when you borrow their umas, when play against them in TT, when you see them in the club and see them flaunting the title that you don't and never will have.
You will keep seeing this title and thinking
>That could have been me
>That should have been me
But it's too late
It will never come to pass

I'm sure you fully realize that this first virginal experience is gone forever, and even if you ever manage to win a different CM, this experience will haunt you for all long as this game stays on your mind
Other titles will just never be the same because they will never represent and capture the zeitgeist of when the game was at it's most fresh and vigorous, when these generals were alive.
After all... A gemini or a scorpio is no Taurus...

That's ok
You're not wrong to feel bad
I would feel bad too if I knew that the singular opportunity is gone and is never coming back

I guess being #2 isn't so bad either, Eh?
Though FOREVER sure is along time...