one of the worst things about not passing is people don't understand that i find men violating.

being in a bathroom with them is violating, having to share a bedroom with a man is violating. why can't women see i'm just like them. i just want to feel safe and comfortable as a woman

being trans is kind of like being raped by my own body desu. it's like having a rapist imposed on me

i hate being a fucking ugly twinkhon. i don't want to look like this. my manly huge ugly jaw makes me want to shoot myself. i just want to be a woman. i hate how transitioning has turned me from a cute pretty boy to a fucking hideous ugly girl

i keep finding more stretch marks and i think i have a muffin top. i'm not even a year on estrogen and my BDD is about to turn into normal cis woman body dysmorphia. i'm so close to becoming anorexic again