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Not to mention
Judge was Jewish female
Prosecutor was Jewish female
My PD was Polish female
The Victim was Jewish female
I was fucked. I tried to argue bias and change venue but they didn't let me because I wasnt being charged with a hate crime
Then literally a few weeks before my sentencing they tried to hit me with a hate crime enhancement
my guidelines were 27-33 months but the judge gave me 43 months instead
I went to Torah studies for a whole year and studied with the Rabbi to educate myself and deradicalize my thinking. I made significant changes by reading psychology, philosophy, and spirituality books the whole time.
I also taught myself Spanish.
But they didn't care. And it honestly broke any faith I had in a God. It felt like it was all for nothing. But I wasn't doign well out there, and I needed a break from computers, weed, the fucked up life i was living.
I'm doing much better now. Just sad i have to be on the ankle monitor.
I just wish the victim told me that my messages were fucking with her. I thought she was just ignoring me. Apparently they were already blocked but they showed up on her laptop via icloud.
But I wasn't doing well before. My mental health was seriously fucked up. I was self harming and mutilating myself. Smoking weed non stop. Getting into road rage every week. Constantly having conflicts with people.
I'm much more at peace now. I accept that what I did was wrong. I tried to get help, I had therapists, suicide hotline, tried to find a support group, but it wasnt enough.
My friend had a background in psychological and knew me for 18 years so I thought she would have understood what I was goin through.
I accept that I was wrong, but I just feel like they gave me too much time. And now I'm fucked anytime I try to get a job or do anything and someone googles my name.
