Does anyone else have obsessive-compulsive behavior? I swear my thoughts about transitioning are related to this in some way.
A few years ago I had calluses in my thumbs from pressing it against my fridge door just to make sure it was closed, and I couldn't sleep unless I triple checked every door that faced the outside to make sure they were locked. I can't use gas-powered stoves because I my mind screams that I'm going to fuck something up and explode my entire house when I turn it on. I can't follow routines that have times on them (for example, writing "wake up at 5am") because if I miss it for even a minute my entire day is ruined and I can't stop ruminating about it.
Is this proof I'm just a mentally ill man that got the tranny virus stuck in his brain?