>>82467788
>divorced back in april
>wife trooned out last year
>started taking testosterone and wearing binders
>got more and more disgusted by it
>tried to be supportive because I loved them
>we'd still have sex but wouldn't let me touch her tits and would ask me to take pictures of her clit to see how big it got
>got in a roid rage at my parents because my dad yells at the dogs
>parents kick her out
>she moves back to her parents
>see her maybe once a week at most
>realize how much happier I am without her in my life
>try to stay friends at the very least
>texts me she's moving to new york with her trans friends
>she remembers I fucked her feet in her sleep like a week before leaving
>I literally just jerked off on her soles because that's the kind of porn I like to watch
>I wanted a video of me doing the same thing to my wife
>we do a lot of kinky shit and I didn't think it would be a big deal
>I show her the video the next day (this was back in like 2022)
>nothing
>she could have brought it up at couples counseling
>tells me in a text about how disgusted she felt from it and that she didn't say anything because she felt trapped since she was a NEET living in my old bedroom
>feel guilty as fuck about it
>didn't even get to say goodbye to the girl i've spent the last 10 years of my life with

We went through so much together. Lots of ups and downs. We went through covid together, a miscarriage, family dying. In reality though I would more than likely just be doing my own thing in the same room. I was glued to my steam deck or tablet. But that's just how our relationship worked. I miss who they were quite a bit. They're not the same person now. Just a lot to take in. I miss talking to her about whatever vidya i'm playing or what manga i'm reading. She would listen. She supported me 100% before she trooned out. It's devastatingly depressing to me. I was close to her family and I can't say anything to them because of the whole foot thing.

>>76598374
bros, I'm thinking about going to therapy for the first time. I've always called it a scam, and my opinion hasn't changed. I have the self-awareness to understand my issues and most of their causes, and I strongly believe I can guess all the "solutions" and "insights" the therapist will offer. But I have no one to talk to. I literally do not have a friend. I am so fucking lonely I am considering dropping ~$200 just to talk to someone irl who will listen to me. But I spend most of my days contemplating suicide so I guess the money doesn't matter all that much anyway.
Thoughts on this?

Also I was going to go hiking around Mount Rainier today but I got COVID, I think from a rave (would recommend, without the COVID) I went to last week. This blows.
Thoughts on Mount Rainier?

Also I am unemployed (not quite hurting for cash yet), but that's more of a /g/ thing.

>>718361439
>>718375490
>>718362043
>15 years passed
>tfw still no cute tomboy gf