I'm so close to ending it.
Hobbies are boring, talking to people stresses me out and everything is a struggle, even basic things like daily chores.
I'm such an embarassment to my family and myself. I saw an old friend of mine yesterday. He has a girlfriend, is extremely fit and is already enrolled in college.
Me? I almost never leave the house. I avoided talking to him directly for a little over 2 years now because I'm just so ashamed of what I've become.
>inb4 just transition then
There is no point. At best I'll become a simulacrum of womanhood, because the word "transition" is already wrong. There is no transition. People are stuck with their birth sex for life, even if they try to cope and take hormones later on.
Not to mention the femreppers that actually know what being a woman is like and want out. If they lived like that and hate it with a passion, why would I enjoy it? Is becoming a pariah for a disgusting fetish worth it?
I'm so tired of everything. I just want to feel happy and fulfilled for once, but even that seems too much to ask.

>>105762051
Why do people just talk about Rust out of their ass without even having used it?
>viable middle ground
Idiomatic Rust is faster than idiomatic C. If we drop the idiomatic requirement both languages are as fast since both allow you to write in assembly.
>don't seem useful in any other place where C is being currently used
Its extremely useful in kernel development and embedded development (Embassy btfos RTOS in performance and code size). It's also used for graphics programming as a first-class WebGPU citizen.

Anyone been getting timed out on Jew opus?