I pretty much ruined myself by doing this. Never thought id have a gf so I said fuck it, and started seeing hookers.

Well, I did end up getting a girlfriend a few months ago. I had to break up with her because visiting prostitutes has ruined my ability to pair bond and experience love. Its like everything is dulled down now and I cant feel a genuine connection to any women anymore. I feel spiritually damaged and dirty as well. Just stay away from this shit, even if you think you are hopeless. You can never go back and fix it or prevent yourself from doing it, and neither can I. The damage is done and I am fucked and basically cursed myself to a lonely existence forever.