>>76722021
I'm not sure if it's possible that I can ever lose weight, or better myself in any way and no - these are not the words of depression or excuse.

This isn't ragebait or trolling or any sort of meme, I've been ruminating on these thoughts for months and I'm randomly deciding to voice them now.

I was extremely /fit/ in my late teens, I'm talking 99th percentile all-rounder. 18 years old with a 330lb bench with weight lifting being my 5th sport, I was heavily into climbing and parkour. Infinity pullups, climbing my urban sprawl for fun.

I had severe untreated psychiatric issues, a relationship breakdown led to a suicide attempt, everything unravelled and I had a NDE, was in a medically induced coma, nearly died.

I woke up, had to live in the hospital for a long time, months. Took every pill they suggested, subsequently went through years of talk therapy, cbt, dbt, just about every form of therapy that exists.

Eventually my response to therapy was so great that i could discontinue my antipsychotics, my mood stabilisers, everything. I was completely natural, and completely in control of myself.