>>40491064
not really. i had many chances to escape this life and mostly sat idly by because im a coward that lets anxiety control my life. i made my bad and now i must lie down or walk away.
>>40491084
im an old soul. ive had a lot of people say that to me in life.
>>40491091
i mean i aint very young anymore. how old did you think i was? do i look old? that would be kinda wack
>>40491115
it comes in waves. its prolly worse cause ive been kinda missing taking my depression meds. also i think i meant is just typed isnt fsr :p im sure it wont it just feels so weird. so real on the friends thing too. ive tried making so many in my life and then that feeling comes and usually ruins it very badly. like i cant trust em or theres something in the way. like an almost physical wall between me and them that makes relating almost impossible. like im incapable of connrction and i have to resort to a kinda act. most of my friendships in life have felt almost inauthentic for no particular reason. ig just life in general. like im an actor is some weird play where everyone got the script and im just trying to piece together what they got through acting like them or seeiong how they interact with eachother. im so lonely
