>>41055154
Also, I absolutely love bulgur, couscous and the like. I enjoy most kinds of semolina type dishes.
>>41056619
You did great, Anon. These initial steps are the most important. You are on the right track and I'm very proud of you..
>>41058496
Oh wonderful, Anon! I hope you get to treat yourself to that again soon! What do your weekends usually look like? Saturday is the day I do these kinds of things.. it helps me a great deal.
>>41057446
I believe I do, yes. I get that you don't wanna be spotted by someone you know, so to say.
I'm happy to be there for you, in what little ways I can. Self worth/love.. hm. Internalizing external stuff can be hard. As someone who still flinches from sudden movements even 20 years later I must admit I have made some personal experience on that front, including the same hate and the feeling unlovable. I don't have specific resources for it, though it is perhaps worth browsing the yt channels we link about trauma and attachment patterns to address some facets.
>I have trouble with vulnerability because I fear others seeing me for who I actually am and potentially rejecting me for it.
One thing we DO have a worksheet for I believe is on the concept of radical openness, and this is my own personal coping mechanism too. I externalize these fears to people I trust, and try to openly express worries of this sort. Especially early on I decided that I can't be trusted with knowing when to shut up cause my answer would always be "immediately" which led nowhere. Also, asking about people's actual expectations can be eye opening because we project odd expectations we have of ourselves onto others a lot in my experience. Of course all these things are far bigger steps but I want to hear your thoughts on them if you are up for it.
>I also started therapy last week, my second appointment is tomorrow
That's great to hear, Anon! I would love to hear how it went. And thank *you* for speaking up. Opening up is the lifeblood of this place.