>>41662827
mine are less "thoughts" and more genuine, raw discomfort. i don't think of myself as a woman in a man's body or anything of the sort, i just feel physical anguish over my form. as such, i do not have a "male" or "female" persona i wear at different times.
i do wish i could be more "truetrans" in a mental sense, even thought that would just make things vastly worse for me, but at least i'd get some confirmation that i am, in fact, a tranny, and not some porn-rotted freak that's going to reap what he sowed. i'm not a woman in body or mind, no matter how much i dream of this being different.