I've been struggling with my weight for as long as I can remember. I hit 400lbs recently and have seriously begun to consider these GLP1 drugs. My relationship to food has been fucked since I was prepubescent, what the fuck kind of hope is there that I can turn it around through will alone? I've never been a healthy weight, I don't even know what it's like to move through life with a healthy body.
I don't want to take the pharma route because it's always a faustian bargain, but I'm nearly 30 now. Staying this weight is absolutely going to kill me, I am continually demoralized by repeated failures to shirk the weight, so the faustian bargain is looking more and more like a clear choice if I want any real shot at living past my 40s.