does anyone know if i can get the effects of a shower without actually going in the shower

>>82189418
when i was in middle school my gf wanted kiss and fug and i said eww no gross
i would probably still react that way

i dont have a bf or friends or family or anyone, no one wants to be around me
i want to kill people like kira in jojo

>>40650330
Well in my case I was a NEET from 15 to 20, I was briefly in special ed schooling from 16-17 and I was a huge faggot then but I didn't think much of it.
I might just be a faggot.
Fuck.

im gonna commit shower pray for me