>>40845523
>what do you reach for when you need a boost during the day?
I don't. I suffer through it like I suffer through the rest of existing.

i think my life ended before it even started. you are telling me after being molested, raped, assaulted, groomed--all multiple instances throughout growing up--i now have to live with all that??
idk what to do. i am clinically mentally ill, i hate society, i hate capitalism, i want the human race to be wiped.
im too young to be so sad, life only gets worse. i feel lonely and disgusting and stuck with myself forever until i eventually kill myself at 30 (very high chance) or sooner (even higher chance).
what do i do?? where do i find love? where do i find someone who wants anything genuine? men on dating apps just want sex, i want real connection and they dont even reply to me after i suggest that intention DESPITE it being on my literal profile... i hate being on this planet with you fucks (humans).
being a NEET gamer fucking blows shit cus who TF wants that in the real world????? guys online sure, but IRL you need to be a career girl or in college to be considered normal or dateable. i need advice, or at the least can you guys tell me to kill myself or something FFS i will do anything. except get a job, im not submitting myself to working society FUCK OFF.