Masturbated yesterday 3 times before sleep. Masturbated 3 times this morning after waking up. I need to kill myself. There is no way out.
I lost. Lost like an animal loses in animal world.
She's 25 in 3 days. She will never love me. She will experience all the different feelings for someone else.

Went outside to buy some slop in Kyiv, Ukraine.
I want to get back on fpv so much. That was my only joy.