nyymit nukkumata

>Be friendless loser incel
>Video games and everything feels like a waste of time
>Get sad and angry over my state
>Try to cope by obsessively researching history of my nation and the world
>Listen to different figures with conflicting interpretations
>Learn people use history and ideology to justify plundering, massacring and subjugating others
I can't even tell who is the bad guy because depending on who you ask you will get different explanations and at the end of the day it all seems to come down to power, human selfishnes and survival. Why do I always get demoralized and black pilled by everything? I just want to have a purpose and meaning I can die for.