Iv been thinking..
People fundamentally enjoy punching down, humans are inherently sadistic.. the truest nature of man is to torment.. its only through maturation and personal development can humans pseudo-ascend their beastial nature.
But at the end of the day, you can rip a wolf of its fur, but itll still be a wolf.
A core part of humanity will always be sadism.
The measure of a persons soul therfor is how far they can ascend from that beastial evil form into a calm gentle being that does not hurt others.
I do not want to hurt others.. i want to be at peace and for people to flourish. I believe humans are like seeds that need the proper nurturing in order to bloom, no matter the age, even an old man can need some gentle help in order to fulfill his most true and ultimate form.

If the world is a form of hell created by an inherently cruel creator, isn't it interesting that the creator created beings named humans that whilst collectively evil, when alone, show a lot more goodness than you'd expect from creations of an evil creator.

This makes me think there are multiple creators, and whilst there is much evil that is sourced from evil gods, there is also much good that is sourced from good gods.


The existence of good is the most spiteful thing for the evil forced because no matter how evil the world is, its fascinating that there are humansbthat nonetheless are beautifully good.

We see true goodness within humans, and good is only one letter away from god.

Anywah i just think, even i as a pessimist, have to admit, that there are divine powers at play, but that there are evil powers at play.

The worrying thing perhaps is just how much affect the evil forces have tho. In a truly good world, animals wouldnt have to suffer. I canr see any reason for it. Theyd just be killed quickly and then eaten. Much within nature seems incredibly evil, like wasps impregnating orher creatures, that seens like life that was created by an evil force.

Its all very complex


Is god not all powerful?
Or rather, are the forces of good not all powerful?


Or... now what if, we are the gods of our world, and the amount of evil in the world is directly proportional to how many evil people there are?
It would explain a lot and it wouldnalso ontologically justify the killing of evil people if they are truly having some kind of paranormal affect on reality.

Sorry for the ramble im still trying to figure out the world.