>>82997343
For the sake of efficiency I'll link to what I just told someone else a few minutes ago.
>>82997348
Everything I said there save the reference to dead parents applied to your quandary as well. I too suffered through nihilism on multiple occasions and I will probably do so in the future. I even intended to kill myself in my late 20's, but I'll be turning 31 in before the year is through and much of my will to live is based around this goal-based mentality.