i hadnt seen my face for a week and a half and so for a moment i felt pretty good about myself
then i took a picture of myself and now i feel like i really really need to kill myself
i saw myself and it immediately triggered my fight or flight response. i dont look male or female. i barely look human. my appearance is horrifying. i feel terrible for all the people that have had to look at me. i feel so guilty that i inflict myself on peoples senses against their will just by existing.