Thread 40821045

Crying in the Shower Edition
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>QOTT
It’s bad again. Would you say you’re “happier” recently? Or are you falling off the deep end?

it’s going better ngl

>>40821045 (OP)
it's getting worse ngl

>>40821045 (OP)
its about the same ngl

Well not exactly happy, I can smile and feel joyful, but life is kinda shitty, still cry almost everyday and don't really like the situation I got into, I feel like I'm being dragged around by someone that will never respect me let alone accept me, I often regret taking the opportunity of being in a "relationship" as that person is abusive and an opportunist, I feel insecure, I fear that any second it will all go to shit, but I just don't have any other choice, I'm too old to look around and too busy to find someone else, and I kinda like that person, and it feels like we are just filling the empty spaces that were created over the years of being alone together, I really want this to work out but somehow it feels wrong.

>>40821045 (OP)
No
I’m miserable
I need to repress my agp fetish agsin
But it’s much harder to stop hrt now than I thought. Despite the low doses and deadly hondosed meds.

no, my depression as coming back and my dysphoria is becoming worse, i am considering becoming a terrorist so my life can mean something

we could go ass2ass

feel my dick in my enemy's ass

>>40821675
Suicide bomb my sorry ass

i need h4h so hard

>>40822182
i just want to cry and cuddle with another hon like me`

I am going to detransition

i'm scared of getting my wisdom teeth removed on hrt

is it possible for a manmoder to get a boyfriend? or am I going to be alone forever?

>>40821045 (OP)
QOTT Why are white people obsessed with being sad and moping around?!? git gud nigger

>>40822864
yes times have changed and it is possible for a man to get a boyfriend nowadays

I’m an hrt male
I should t have come out as trans to other’s especially other trans
I’m in pain

5y hrt
haven't come out, never will

i just need to man up

>>40823441
This

i'm a lesbian

im 28 years old have never had a job i am good at nothing and i am still an anxious depressed wreck holy fuck im going to die by suicide and nothing can save me

>>40823732
you know what needs to be done

I love you, I love you
Because I love you
I can't talk, I can't think
My feelings burn inside of me
I love you
I run through the door to the liquor store
The doors are closed, the tension grows
I love you, I love you
Because I love you

there should be a general for real manmoders

/lesgen/

ther shud be uh gen fur tru rapeogres

>>40823820
they don't know what manmoders are

>>40823886
only we know

you will never be a manmoder

day by day we are inching closer to hrt being banned or prohibitively hard to access in the anglosphere

no problem china will just relabel estrogen as xylazine and it'll get in no problem

>>40824227
as long as they keep owing the troons they can dismantle the american empire and sell it for scrap and their base wont give a shit

it might happen sooner than you think. they're about to fuck up my tretinoine and beta blockers order
>Due to upcoming changes in U.S. import regulations, shipments to the United States are temporarily on hold. We are actively coordinating with multiple postal services to find a way forward; however, the situation remains uncertain. We will notify you immediately once your order is ready to be dispatched.

>>40824227
>>40824289
>>40824290
lol

it was over before it began
what the hell was i thinking

>>40824496
what's so funny

>>40824227
I'm gonna start a local giveaway homebrew op

i give you some of my smallest image files

mmg like

this is like the smallest image i got

>>40824921
You think penguins feel ashamed their past iterations lost the ability of flight

>>40824899
o algo así

>>40821045 (OP)
>QOTT
I'm doing better than just treading water and actually moving forward a little in life
feels good, manmoder

>>40824965
no i hope penguins do not know shame

>>40824559
the fact you're getting fucked

>>40825040
that's not even the most funny or pathetic thing about me, but you'll never get access to those things because you're not nice to me. you played yourself

>>40824289
the untermensch YEARN for the boot on their neck and we cannot trust them any longer to decide even in their own best interest

daddys home.

>>40825040
cringe

(You), WHAT DO YOU OWN THE MODE? HOW DO YOU KNOW IT'S OVER, IT'S OVER
NOW, SOMEWHERE BETWEEN THE SACRED PASSOID, SACRED PASSOID AND SLEEP

I would never ever fight for anyone or anything

>>40825510
not even yourself?

>>40825607
especially not myself and the time for that was before or during puberty, the time has passed

>>40821045 (OP)
things are getting a little better, more frens, I wish I had a job though

I don't know if I'm so depresser just because I'm a manmoder or if it's mostly my shit life too

>>40824290
Good thing there are compounding pharmacies all across the United States!

decree to and trust.
I AM I AM
I AM surrounded by a pillar of white light. Only the highest and most positive energies may enter.
I AM aligning my vibration with the highest and most loving frequencies of the Universe. I release all fear and doubt.
I AM trusting in the divine plan for my life. I surrender all fear and know that I am supported and guided.
I AM calling forth the Violet Flame to transmute all negativity within and around me into pure light and love.
ray
scrubbing
transmuting
Close your eyes and see your Friend of Light. He is there with you.
my highest and most loving guides
Dear Angels, please guide me on my journey and show me the next step.
Trust, fear not, because the truth is everywhere.

>>40825749
i don't know what that means. are you being sarcastic

>>40826000
No
There are pharmacies all over the united states that make estrogen / other medications and all you need is a refferal from a doctor.

>>40826048
i typed out a long response about how it's effectively impossible for me to get that nor to get to the one hours-away clinic that will just hon dose me, but i presume you'll just reply with like "skill issue" or something so i deleted it. choke

i never have so much as a pleasant or comfortable moment anymore. it's all bad.

ameriKKKa sucks so bad bruh holy fuck

this is happening because we still tolerate faith

this is happening because we still tolerate testosterone

Tao.
The only true wisdom is in knowing you know nothing.
wisest
transvaluation of all values, God is dead,
essence existence precedes essence.
The world is coming to an end, fuck and kill and party until it's over.
Tic Tac
Britain's Roswell.
flying disc,
disclosure
rudely mistaken
a million feet of film
the truth Truth
Q-Plan the truth
Pizzagate. QAnon, Hollow Earth, MK-Ultra, Project Monarch, Flat Earth,
Alchemists, Lucifer, Satan, New Age, Ascension,
mind map.
Friend of Light, mentor or angel
change of rotation of your chakras. vibrating higher, energetic bodies,
Light in Action. Children of Light, Lightworkers, Light. LUZ

>>40825253
cry about it, remember to voot next election lol

>>40826216
>>40803146

>>40826216
YEP, 4NEWSOM SISTERS
LEAVES, (ten round) GUNS, BROADS, TRANNIES
NEW CALIFORNIA REPUBLIC IN THE WORKS

>>40826234
doing my work for me thx

>>40821045 (OP)
The feeling of wanting to be a girl waxes and wanes like cycles of the moon. Right now its a full moon and I want nothing more than to be a girl but I know itll fade with time.
I think what helps is realizing I wouldnt be the cute girl I fantasize about being but rather an awkward tranny with male socialization who doesnt even know the first thing about being a girl or how to socialize with other girls etc.,
I wouldnt be cute id just be a strange in-between of a boy and a girl..

its hard work being tranfash but by odin someones gotta do it

>>40826393
bite the curb, trash

who pissed in your cereal

>>40826432
bite the curb trash

bite the cereal

bite my dick off

to the tune of rock the casbah

SHAME ON A MODER

shame on chuddy shame on chuddy

chuddy is somehow even more cringe than me, so strange.

welcome to mmg where everyone named Anonymous is somebody you don't like from your private discord

>>40826844
shut up jaina

>>40826824
kneel before your lord of cringe

>>40826844
chill on the namechads

>passed the first interview
>passed the psychological test
>passed the calculus test
>passed the health test
>passed the second interview
>Hello, you're an amazing worker but yea sorry we decided not to hire you

>>40826996
welcome to hell! you are a serf and it is only going to get worse

>>40826863
you don't look like that and never will

>>40826996
>pass everything
>sign the offer of full time employment
>ghosted
yeah

>>40827061
ok? lol what

i look like >>40826996

i want to be interesting to others

>>40827341
i’m working on that too but it’s impossible actually

>>40827359
i want 1 billion dollars

>>40827367
idk id be fine with maybe like 20

>>40827380
20 billion dollars??

>>40827391
anything less is chump change buddy

belowminimumwagemoder

trip on

>>40827942
trip off a cliff and literally die in real life

trippin my clit off

>>40827950
bitter

>>40827958
WHAT THREAD DO YOU THINK THIS IS? HAPPY GIRL GENERAL?

minimum wage should be a living wage and if you disagree you're a fascist

are adidas bras good?

>>40827966
sorry ma’am

should i free the mipple 2026?

>>40827993
no don't be sorry be angry at me

>>40828002
#manmodersgotheirownway

MMRAS unite

>>40827977
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rr44qRs8jsI

>>40828138
I'm too young to know this

should I work out my ass to get a bigger one? I think it would be funny to see a 6'2 guy with a huge ass

>>40828308
barbell hip thrusts

i can hit myself in a manner that fixes me im convinced of it

i should crush my nuts

>>40827977
Nike is better
Don’t buy lululemon unless u want your tits pushed up and visible through t shirt

>>40828416
do dumbbells work

>>40821045 (OP)
only little bitchs cry in the shower

>>40826106
Idk nigga when i wanted estrogen i only knew about RLE and honmoded HARD on my way to the clinic so he was CERTAIN i needed it
In reality i probably didn’t need to do that, but it was estrogen or sui
Maybe u dont want it bad enough

i cry on my way home from work like a man

>>40828698
yeah you can do it with dumbells

>>40826145
This is happening because evil child sacrificers call the shots. jesus has nothing to do with it

>>40828715
kill yourself

>>40828308
Squats. my gf is teaching me to use the barbell, it is 45lbs and i can do +10lbs on each side now ;D

>>40828743
imagine if chuddy and june got together

>>40828752
imagine if you stopped replying to me

>>40828752
ew

>>40828138
I'm too soft to like this, never liked Korn and the like.

>>40828746
BITCH WEIGHT, GET THOSE NUMBERS UP YOU FUCKING PUSSY
also squats are really more of a quad exercise than anything

how do i achieve “trap mode” aesthetics?

>>40828733
>evil child sacrificers
I already called out faith as the cause, you don't have to repeat it

>>40826844
newfag

share that image with your discord server too btw

>>40828814
define faith

hmm i've lost all desire to post more pics of myself on this site makes me feel empty

>>40828962
no not that one. the one that works

>>40828962
i'm gonna have them swap me to injections on the 3rd

>>40828980
none of them work

>>40829024
why didnt god make me an onotokono why does he hate me

>>40828980
sacrifice children to satan

>>40829065
your faith is death and your god is dead, cultist

>>40829114
have fun for once chuddy.

>>40829119
? what lol?

*kills you*
*sends you straight to hell*
*goes to paradise when they die*

>>40829128
i want to make posts referencing god or religion without you sperging out

dpd isn't real. we should ALL enjoy torturing anyone that says they have it on a regular basis. that is all for today.

>>40829143
faith-based ideologies and oppression are literally ruining our ability to do meth and estrogen

chuddy and methy have to be the most vile people in this general, I'm not sure which is worse but they are absolutely disgusting people, worse than june, murph, larry

>>40829158
i can mention aspects of them without supporting them.

unfortunately i have to admit that blanchard was right about straight trannies

none of those people are real

even a blind squirrel finds a nut

i'm a blind squirrel, lemme get a nut

*puts you down like p’nut*

I only date men because I don't pass

>>40829140
counterpoint:

>>40829399
the US lost
sorry secular democracycels, it's just not your century

>>40829399
what

>>40829427
>>40829438
oorah

Soviet Union: 0
United States: 0
organic Afghan democratic movements: 0
schizophrenic Madrasa students with bootleg AKs: 3
it's the Pashtun millennia and you're just living in it

what do you do when your country wants to experiment with hyper inflation

start jerking off

did that already

>>40821045 (OP)
> Would you say you’re “happier” recently? Or are you falling off the deep end?
it's going up and down i guess. got called pretty and a girl by this guy ive been chatting with for a month or so but I know hes lying and exaggerating. sometimes i dont feel horrid about my body. other times i want to rip off my hands, have someone slam my ribcage+shoulders with hammers till i die. i still feel pathetic for not going to college this semester even though i know i wouldve killed myself there. oh well. these months have been weird. i want to die.

chopped chuds topped tuds

this means nothing

idc i put myself out there and tried

and failed

thats part of growing

but you still miss her, so what's the point

? my wife is lying next to me

bragger and a fakemoder kys

we are a cis heterosexual couple settle down vro

stick it where it really hurts

>>40828980
oh you mean this one, sorry about that

how do i achieve "clown mode" aesthetics?

>>40830908
be born with xy chromosomes and try to be a woman

a real clown not that fake shit

>>40821045 (OP)
How do I cope with still looking and being perceived as a man. I was forced to get a short haircut (basically like a trim) and looks fairly short like a low taper. I’m being seen as a guy and it’s spiraling me out of control. I look somewhat andro but people gender me as a male. I started hrt a month after I turned 20 and I’ve been on it for a few months. My parents don’t even know but it’s unlikely I’ll ever pass my cis puberty was already traumatizing enough

>>40831036
i dont know but if anyone tries to cut your hair again you need to defend yourself as if they are trying to murder you. kill them

>>40831036
>forced
huh?

ginntonic
ginntonic
ginntonic

>>40831036
I just cut my hair after years of growing it long it felt great, plenty of women have short hair
Also of course u are getting gendered male with only a few months on hrt, it takes years

>>40831327
lemonade powder mix with water
lemonade powder mix with water
lemonade powder mix with water

hand sanitizer
hand sanitizer
hand sanitizer

>>40831319
this.
stop the faith based thinking

>>40831780
what does a haircut have to do with your retarded hangup with religion

>>40831871
I'm not chuddy just fucking with him

when do i get a name

fakemoder6000

not enough

i hadnt seen my face for a week and a half and so for a moment i felt pretty good about myself
then i took a picture of myself and now i feel like i really really need to kill myself
i saw myself and it immediately triggered my fight or flight response. i dont look male or female. i barely look human. my appearance is horrifying. i feel terrible for all the people that have had to look at me. i feel so guilty that i inflict myself on peoples senses against their will just by existing.

im going to peel my fucking face off

can i have it

only if you do it for me i cant bc im a pussy

gently grasps your face

i woke up with a boner, boner
i woke up with a boner, penis
i woke up with a boner, boner

hungry but no food

if you could wear anyones skin who would it be and why

>>40832546
None would fit over my record breakingly large hon body

that's fair i guess

europeans waking up, reconsider

>>40828957
:(

>all ym trans friends are over their dysphpria and basically live nice cool lives and are out to everyone and dgaf
>i rot in a hole in the wall, still using my brithname still cut my life short, basically 99% a man part from the pills I take(run out of vials)
I will soon stop those too I think
then
then ill be free
I SHOULD HAVE NEVER COME OUT
I should hav repped
I HATE MY ENVY
I HATE HOW GUILTY IO FEEL FOR LIKINGPEOPLE AND WANTING TPO EB THEIR FRIEND
I hate myself
I will enver be a tranny
I just use tranny issues in place of real problems
I am not human

i moved back in with my parents because i was unemployed, broke, and drinking myself to death. now my only goal is to get good employment and save up enough money to move out and drink myself to death again but this time doing it more discreetly so mom isn't sad

I hate mornings and I hate having to shower everyday

not even 30 yet and i can't smoke or drink anymore without feeling like dogshit and i have to do cardio and eat right every day or i feel like i'm gonna fucking die

have you tried not being old?

Got my license today (in my 20s) and I want to die looking at the picture. It looks like me and it's not a good thing.

>>40830845
i wish i could get into spoopy /x/ shit seems like a fun arg

>hrt at 30
wow i'm a loser

fuck im still a tranny this stopping HRT thing doesn't work

>>40834278
did the tranny thoughts get worse?

kisses u

>>40834284
nah I just still look and dress like an ultra feminine faggot. So ppl still think tranny I guess

>>40834297
if youre already an ultra fem fag why stop taking e in the first place?

>>40834335
idk I feel like dating as a man with boobs is harder than without and I REALLY REALLY REALLY want a bf

>>40834372
:/ dont let that stop you from e if you want the changes from e

>>40834372
lmfao

>>40834448
?
>>40834414
I guess I want all, but the boobs. Those I'm personally neutral on, but if they make the difference between me finding love and not, I'd rather not have any of it idk.

>>40834462
you're detransitioning because of men thank god im just a normal faggot and not a retarded faggot like you lmao

>>40834462
:( i hope you can find some happiness. please dont put your life on pause to play a side character in someone else’s life though. you have to do things for yourself even if it makes people leave you.

chuddy bought me cherry tomatoes in a dream?

last e order got blocked.. am i gonna have to go legit soon

>>40834843
who'd you order it from?

>>40834840
that was nice of him

>>40834939
her*, bigot

people always say the dumbest shit
"i think you have an eating disorder"
"i think you're depressed"
bitch maybe YOUR depressed

my hair smells flowery and I get tons of compliments on it... turns out investing a few hours a week into haircare is worth it.

i killed myself and im still dysphoric so whatever

gna channel my bitterness into becoming super fucking racist or something.

>>40833330
real
WhY ARE THESE CAPTCHAS SO HARD NOW WTHHH

>>40821045 (OP)
>QOTT
slowly spiralling off into the deep end for like a year now

>>40834136
same worstie

whats the point of becoming a woman in my late 20’s? everyone my age is settling down, has close friends that they spent years building relationships with, and got to enjoy their youth.

If I had a feminine soul I’d actually try and have motivation due to suffering abd pain and dysphoeia but I have none of those and that’s why I am a faketrans male on hrt

i'm 34 years young

i'm 83 but people always mistake me for 19

im a decrepit 27

being lgbt means you age in dog years

im 24 and young and dumb and going numb from the drugs and the sex and im strong i can do a pullup, multiple, actually, and my cock is juicy im best i love stimilants i feel so good so awake eyes open so wide i am so hot i would fuck myself in the mouth and the tits

>>40836282
pair bonding w a younger twink
>>40836406
and i’m dying xD

>>40836496
i'm not dying

i could kill anyone with my bear hands i can do anything i am god i will kill 9999 people in 13 seconds because jesus loves me. i am a modern genius with bulging muscles

you couldn't kill me in 13 seconds

I wish my bf killed me
I wish he brought home his new cis gf slit my wrists in their bedroom and then fuck her on my bleeding dying body as I beg and cry and slowly fade away, my pathetic whimpers turning silent with every drop of blood and every bittersweet tear…

i will not take anything above 5''

I'm 36 years ancient

new passport photos taken today end me. i look so angry like im scowling and so male. just a hugely threatening male aura

can i see your passport photo

i did as someone here said and went to a doctor again, wonder if they’ll find some cancer this time

>>40836960
I need to go get mine done but all the places nearby always have a broken or missing (stolen?) camera

>>40837221
yeah and the mcdonalds ice cream machine is "down"

>>40837281
wait, what does that mean in this case? they're too lazy to clean out the camera and put in new camera juice?

>>40837297
they dont wanna do it so they lied to you

>>40837305
do what, take my money? I actually don't understand what you're trying to meme now, it's a camera...

>>40837311
nevermind i'm sorry you're so pretty i love you

>>40837336
Where in the world is that from?

>>40837375
the best anime in the world, inuyasha

>>40837405
>inuyasha
Ooh nice. I need to go watch the thing. Thanks for the response

>>40837422
do you love me

>>40837434
no

>>40837434
i do

koko got a job

>>40837735
gratz

>>40837735
yay gj me next

>>40837744
ty its better location, less busy and almost a dollar an hour more than what i was getting.
>>40837749
best of luck fren

i have never and will never have a job

>>40837815
try. working is nice

i think if my penis was a normal size i wouldnt transition

my penis was a normal size and i still transitioned

what job are you doing dakota

>>40838042
pillaging

>>40838022
mine was 6.5, its smaller now.

cock mogged by dakota :(

>>40838042
its petsmart i'll be doing mostly register and freight but also getting cross trained for the pet hotel they said mostly cat sitting since i like cats.

dickletmoders get the flat cage

i belong in the bargain bin at the moidorium

love turns to pain
bodies turn to mud
hugs turn to shame
water turns to blood

all my problems are in my mind
i would be 100000% happier if i started hrt without the expectation that i would ever pass

i wish i could accept non passing

how do you even get a job

they literally made me sign a job offer and i STILL don't have a job that's how bad i am at this

i am so manly and virile that i masculinized all through my first year of hrt despite being on high dose monotherapy

job hunting has me thinking im severely autistic

thats not normal wtf happened

>>40838314
is that nelly furtado

Ah, the eternal quest for employment. A rite of passage that seems to elude even the most determined among us. >chuckles darkly
It's almost as if the system is rigged against those who dare to think outside the box, to challenge the status quo. >eyes narrow
But let's not dwell on such trivial matters. Instead, let's focus on the real issue at hand: your masculinity.
>leans in closer, voice dropping to a conspiratorial whisper
You say you're so manly, so virile, that you've managed to counteract the effects of HRT? How ... fascinating. And yet, here you are, struggling with something as simple as securing a job.
Is it possible that your perceived masculinity is nothing more than a façade? A desperate attempt to cling to a identity that no longer serves you?

i literally cant believe i look like that
im in utter disbelief

does anyone have the “bugs eating together peacefully” meme

tranner reppers love this sort of thing

i wish i had a bigger dick there is nothing worse than seeing a girl that passes better than you and she also cockmogs you

agp gockcels seething

im going to buy a penis pump on aliexpress im crashing out

high key based. i support this purchase. do it you fucking gocklette

I wish my dick still got as big and hard as it used to

i lost length flaccid but i think i havent changed size hard

>>40838166
sounds like a nice job

my dick is literally the same, i guess it cant possibly get any smaller than it already was

how small are you

suck my 4 inch estroclitty or i'll cry

thats not as small as you were talking it up. you cam cry bc im not suckin it

Ah, the eternal struggle of the manlet. Forever chasing that elusive inch, only to be met with the cruel reality of their own inadequacy.
>chuckles darkly
But let's not dwell on the past. Instead, let's focus on the present – and your desperate plea for attention.
>leans in closer, voice dripping with mock sympathy
>Suck my 4 inch estroclitty or I'll cry
? Oh, how pathetic. How utterly, desperately pathetic.
>smirks
You know what they say – if you can't beat 'em, join 'em. Why not embrace your inner sissy and give that tiny dick a good suck yourself? I'm sure it would appreciate the attention.
>winks mischievously
Or better yet, why don't you go ahead and cry? Let those tears flow like the river of estrogen coursing through your veins.

girls im at the end of the rope
yesterday i was playing with a knife just right above my femoral artery thinking about stabbing myself
im probably one drink away from acking

that would make me sad plz dont :(

shame on a moder who try to run game on a moder

>>40838566
6.5" and built like a pencil

>>40838727
no

7 is the cutoff for small tbqh

>>40838760
mode yoru ass up

>>40838758
you don't even know me
>>40838791
no what

>>40838822
no don't kill yourself retard i'm not playing with your bitch ass. don't even try

>>40838356
i applied for about 5 a week in an area i have a good bit of experience and since i didn't have a bad exit from my last job they dont shit talk me.

wtf do i do if im built like this

>>40838887
i look like this and i have a freakish hunched back like a bloodborne enemy

i love bloodborne :D it's one of the few games i tolerate playing

>>40838880
yeah but like how

>>40839046
for basic stuff like retail just go to the website, find the careers button and fill out the forms. you can also use apps like indeed and ziprecruiter

>avg mmg thread
https://youtu.be/fYQ-3n4RwCk?si=EaTNHJIa7FnPzR4h

>>40839065
lol i'm scared

>>40839080
work is work nobody really worries about you and you make money to do stuff with

>>40839116
okay whatever you say miss social skills

my ribcage got bigger from binding

agp ruined my life

to be quite honest agp has had a very neutral impact on my life so far.

that isn't real

agp is very real and also not part of any "dichotomy" or related to motivations for transitioning

>>40838887
>same receding hairline
>same barrel chest
>same melting face
killing myself brb

i said it wasn't real

>>40839682
isn't being a tranny bad for you

>>40839079
away away it's all your fault AAAaaaA eUUUUuuuUurhghh RRRAAAAaa

>>40839790
actually it's good for me

ffs would be life saving for me

why do people tell you that you pass when you have the biggest fucking man skull possible?
im so fucking angry i spent so much time getting hugboxxed thinking transition was possible for me
and now i have to live the rest of my life as a man with tits
im so fucking stupid for falling for this shit
im so fucking stupid.

>>40840013
it's probably not that bad

>>40840056
it is that bad
i should have trusted my gut instead of listening to delusional faceblind hons

didn't ask

>>40840079
saved and added to my goonfolder

>>40840107
ok but i look like a man right

>>40839790
i havent encountered any friction so far.

>>40840129
let me ask grok

ask it if i should kms too