I knew I was trans since I was 9. One day on the family pc I googled why does it feel like I’m a girl. And realized that there’s other people are like me. Once I started puberty it was already the beginning of the end. There was nothing I could do, my parents would never accept me.

I remember being 17 and puberty was over and I hated it. I should’ve just transitioned then rather than waiting until I’m 20. Now it’s practically too late. I’m just seen as a gay guy.

I love my parents but deep down I resent them for ruining my life. And believe me I thought I was insane and did everything to fit in as a guy and it just made things worse.

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The feeling of wanting to be a girl waxes and wanes like cycles of the moon. Right now its a full moon and I want nothing more than to be a girl but I know itll fade with time.
I think what helps is realizing I wouldnt be the cute girl I fantasize about being but rather an awkward tranny with male socialization who doesnt even know the first thing about being a girl or how to socialize with other girls etc.,
I wouldnt be cute id just be a strange in-between of a boy and a girl..

what are your thoughts on saying the n word? i personally oppose it because racism is unmeritocratic