Thread 40831073

I knew I was trans since I was 9. One day on the family pc I googled why does it feel like I’m a girl. And realized that there’s other people are like me. Once I started puberty it was already the beginning of the end. There was nothing I could do, my parents would never accept me.

I remember being 17 and puberty was over and I hated it. I should’ve just transitioned then rather than waiting until I’m 20. Now it’s practically too late. I’m just seen as a gay guy.

I love my parents but deep down I resent them for ruining my life. And believe me I thought I was insane and did everything to fit in as a guy and it just made things worse.

>>40831073 (OP)
just like beeeee yourself man

i just blame myself for being too much of a pushover. i knew and tried to tell my parents when i was 6, but they shouted me down so i just repressed. anytime i thought about “am i trans?” (which i did a lot, i grew up on tumblr) i just concluded “no, i’m just a weird cis guy”. didn’t get on e til i was 22. sure, my parents never would’ve accepted me, but i could’ve gotten on DIY like 7 years earlier if i had a spine

>>40831117
Same but my parents hated how I was and acted. Literally everyone hated how I acted so I just repped and tried proving them wrong. In the end it was useless.

>>40831091
as someone who knew since i was extremely young and similarly waited way too long and fucked myself because im a retard with a shitty family, unfortunately this is the answer

>>40831073 (OP)
are you the one?
https://youtu.be/3C6smbJdKyY?si=ziZ1iRzmtf5khJLR

>>40831073 (OP)
Did you hate having a penis when you were that young?

>>40831073 (OP)
i drink and do my best to forget i ever had a childhood.

>>40831135
i never tried to act masculine or anything, i always had long hair, was into shit like theater instead of sports, just kinda cowered when my brother would wrestle me, etc. my parents never had too big an issue, it was just the act of calling myself a girl that was too much i guess

i can't cope. i've tried but it just hurts too much every day. i started hrt at 15, i made the choice to free myself, but the adults around me stopped me and chose to throw away my life. it's been a continuous march of rot and pain since i came out at 14. the path of suffering and mutilation

i can sort of cope with some of my childhood because i soulpassed so hard i was basically raised as a girl until puberty. but everyday now i look back at photos of me when i got estrogen the first time and cry... i was so happy and hopeful and my body was so unmutilated. i don't know how to cope

>>40831073 (OP)
I knew since I was in daycare I don't know how I;ve lived two decades without doing anything about it