>>82907029
No Questions Edition pt 20: This Time it's (not) for Real!
>>82907189
>i just laid there motionless and silent questioning what i was even doing
You're not going to get anything out of it doing nothing, but since it's clearly not your cup of tea I can't say you've not tried, though your sincerity is yours to determine.
>i feel like an idiot
It's not something worth getting hung up on. It stings because it's recent, but time will smooth it out as you process your thoughts about it. Don't let it stress you out.