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FAQ:
>What is this thread?
A place for biological women to talk about their lives.
>Why aren't you on Crystal Cafe?
It has been aggressively raided for years and is dead.
>Well, you're raiding my male safe space!
r9k is not a male board. https://wizchan.org/ is.
>I'm a man, can I post here?
Please don't, but if you are going to anyway, be polite and indicate your gender.
>I'm a tranny, can I post here?
No. Die.
>What does nona mean?
Anon -> Nona
>I want a hole
This is not >>>/soc/
>How do femanons feel about (random hypothetical moid scenario)?
This is not /ATOGA/

/biofem/ OP Copy+Paste:
https://rentry.org/biofem_OP

what does though

I'm Chic*kn am I welcome here? :3 btw this is bait for thread engagement since I get lots of hate I assume I will get lots of replies

spanking fembot butts

i ended my little experiment with trying on bisexuality and i can very firmly confirm that im definitely just a lesbian

>>82906515
What was your experiment? This sounds interesting

>>82906566
attempting a sexual relationship with a guy. it wasn't interesting, but i got the data points i needed, i suppose

>>82906599
You went out and fucked a random guy? Surely I'm misunderstanding, I don't know you, but I always imagined you were different...

>>82906618
no, i tried having a full-blown bf, but we didn't have anything in common, so it wound up being just a sex thing. however, that also sucked and i was just forcing myself to go through the motions. had the realization of 'why the fuck am i doing this to myself this is genuinely miserable' and put on the breaks

>>82906643
I feel like a full blown bf isn't just a little experiment. Did you know him long?

>>82906643
Weren't you implying you were pregnant with his child for the past two weeks and that he was providing for you?

>>82906643
>that also sucked
It did not you fucking drama queen. Lol come on now dog..

>>82906643
>but we didn't have anything in common
this is sheer stupidity of the highest orda

>>82906301 (OP)
5 editions a day edition

>>82906301 (OP)
I love cute asian women (with hairy pussies)

>>82906662
we talked for a while online and he basically pressured me into agreeing to try this with him. it's on me for folding and agreeing, though. i definitely regret it
>>82906676
we do a little trolling
>>82906945
dude it fucking did. i could only cum if he was using his fingers. there were a few times where he fucked me and i just laid there motionless and silent questioning what i was even doing, but i don't think he even picked up on the fact that i didn't enjoy it
>>82906972
trust me, i know. i feel like an idiot

>>82907189
do you think it was at least worth trying once, just to see?

>>82907189
I'm sorry schadenfoid. You honestly scare me and I am frightened of you, but I feel like you're more human in my eyes now. Like you're capable of being hurt, and not just hurting me...

>>82907210
i've had piv sex before and it's definitely not worth it, tbdesu. same thing with dating moids. i don't know why i thought this would be any different

>>82907239
i'll still beat you up. you're right to be scared

Hii this is chic*k*n am I welcome here? :3

>>82907189
>>82906945
>dude it fucking did
No it didn't. I was there dork. You're such a brat.

Greetings foids. I hope you are all having a cozy time. If pee and microplastics are stored in the balls, then where do foids store theirs? If you are a boomer foid then where do you store your pee and lead? Yours politely - rule following moid

>>82907294
hey man, im glad it didn't suck for you, but i did not enjoy my time engaging with you sexually. i tried my best. im sorry.

>>82907270
I feel like I can trust you now, if you hurt me, it's for my own good, right?

>>82907363
don't.. don't say things like this to me right now

>>82907391
I mean emotionally schadenfoid, not physically

>>82906676
I told you people, not a single female from here will reproduce. Those that do by some miracle will just spawn some deformed incel or a whore and delay the inevitable by another generation.

>>82907414
ugh. whatever. i retract my flustered reaction image and response and end my turn

>>82907457
Fine you can hit me too if it makes you happy, that's a form of emotional abuse I suppose

>>82907474
yay hooray yippee!!

>>82907456
i hope thats not the case, i wanna have kids and raise them good. if i don't have a boyfriend to do it with i kill myself at 25

>>82907492
But what if the man you're supposed to have kids with isn't supposed to meet you until you're 30? What a shame to quit the game early for no reason.

>>82907521
if thats the case he can go fuck himself because kids at 30+ is a health risk and i refuse to have kids at that point

>>82907540
Having kids at any age is a health risk, unfortunately.

>>82907560
yeah but at 30+ it can cause health issues for the baby, and you got higher risks of miscarriage, gestational diabetes, and labour complications

>>82907572
Your parents were 30+ when they had you and I think you turned out healthy and a good person.

>>82907583
no they werent, they were 25 and 27 when they had me, and im nowhere near healthy, physically or mentally

>>82907594
AH HA so you are a good person despite your health defects, thus proving that health defects don't take away from what's truly important in life.

>>82907607
what does being a good person have to do with what im saying? i said i dont want kids at 30+ because theres increased risks of health issues and miscarriage and other complications

my health defects take away everything from me, anon. i hate living. and i wouldnt want my kids to have these, the only reason i have these is because my parents are drug users and were using when conceiving

>>82907636
I'm just throwing shit out there because I think your life holds value and is worthwhile even if you don't have kids. I hope you do have kids and I hope you'll have them on your timetable, but I hope you'll find a reason to keep living even if that timetable doesn't come to fruition.

>>82906515
No wonder, men always disappoint.

>>82907654
i dont really see a point to living if i cant spend my life with someone and have kids, im so deeply lonely i cant continue to live alone

my life has no value outside of that. i dont work, dont really want friends, dont really like my family. scared to go outside alone. i want to travel but can't do it solo. i want to go out to drink, cant do that alone. i feel depressed/scared going out and going to events. i dont want to go to places i dream as date spots alone because it makes me suicidal. i simply cannot keep living like this. idk if ill even be able to wait til 25 before the depression takes me out

>>82907492
>i wanna have kids and raise them good
You'll compromise.

>>82907540
>kids at 30+ is a health risk
I feel you're greatly exaggerating the health risk of having children after 30 years old.

>>82907718
the compromise is me killing myself

>>82907723
im not. do some research into it

>>82907703
I'm sorry that life sucks. You deserve better than this, and I hope you find out a way to reach a life that doesn't suck.

>scared to go outside alone
When I was scared of the dark at the same time that I hated my life, I would say into the darkness "Go ahead and kill me, I don't care" every time I stepped into the darkness. Nothing ever killed me.

If life is shit then that is freeing too. You CAN go out to the places you'd be going if life wasn't shit, because the best case scenario is you have a good time, and the worst case scenario is the shittiness comes to an end. There's no way for you to lose if you force yourself to get out of bed, take a shower, get dressed, go outside, and do the things you wish you were doing in another life. Take action and you can only win.

>>82907736
>the compromise is me killing myself
No you won't, we're all going to rot here and keep refreshing the 'log until we're 80.

>>82907680
im not a manhater or anything, but i have only had one semi decent relationship with a moid and even that one was abysmal dogshit for the majority of the time we were together. i really only look back on it with fondness because he was my creative muse and a dear friend

>>82907742
>do the things you wish you were doing in another life
i dont want to go out just to see happy couples, families, and idk crime rate is pretty high where im from and ive experienced bad things going out alone. its not even worth it

ill go stand around an art gallery wishing i had someone to talk to about shit there, for what? im not enjoying myself or life by doing that shit, in fact it makes life feel significantly worse, especially if i experience bad things again

I love early 2010s kpop so much

>>82907782
I used to love it too, now it just makes me sad, reminds me of a different time

>>82907780
Doing things alone is just a practice run to benefit your future self. Someday you're going to be taking a boyfriend to that art gallery, and you'll impress him if you already know where the best spots are. Someday you'll be taking your children to art galleries, and you'll show your children that Mom and Dad know everything when the two of you already know the best spots.

>>82907805
i already know all the best spots, ive been outside and to these places, you know. but its hard when im lonely. and after bad experiences with creeps i literally refuse to go outside alone

>>82907324
If the divine feminine urge to lie on r9k makes you feel better ball out dog. Hope it helps. Genuinely.

>>82907823
>after bad experiences with creeps i literally refuse to go outside alone
I have no advice to offer for mitigating the creep situation.
Sorry about that whole mess.
Best of luck to you.

>>82907855
tell yourself what you need to. im sure some women out there enjoy being crawled on for two minutes before being cummed in prematurely by a girthless dick, but im not one of them

>>82907897
You weren't the best I've had by far either. It smelled really bad by the way but that's part of my fetish.

Hey be nice to schadenfoid, she's actually a human

laying in bed wishing i could talk to my crush and hear his cute voice again but instead ive likely been GHOSTED and ill be stuck loving him forever

this is my complaint for today so i dont make a thread

>>82908029
no, let him. he's currently over at another foid's house right now so it's funny to me that he's on here doing this because he's already spent for the night from giving her the same spectacular two pump performance

>>82907540
>kids at 30+ is a health risk
Nope, at 40+ maybe

>>82908142
just because you say nope doesnt mean its fact

https://www.stanfordchildrens.org/en/topic/default?id=risks-of-pregnancy-over-age-30-90-P02481

>>82908159
My parents had me when they were both 39 and I turned out fine!

>>82908170
well anon, theres this thing called "risks" which means yes, some people are just fine, but others not so much. just becsuse your parents were able to have you fine doesnt negate the fact that what they did was risky

>>82907029
No Questions Edition pt 20: This Time it's (not) for Real!
>>82907189
>i just laid there motionless and silent questioning what i was even doing
You're not going to get anything out of it doing nothing, but since it's clearly not your cup of tea I can't say you've not tried, though your sincerity is yours to determine.
>i feel like an idiot
It's not something worth getting hung up on. It stings because it's recent, but time will smooth it out as you process your thoughts about it. Don't let it stress you out.

>>82908385
trust me, it wasn't for a lack of trying. the guy has ed and can barely keep it up even for masturbation. if i so much as shifted too much under him he'd slip out soft. i've been with guys that i was able to actually do stuff in bed with, and i really didn't get anything much out of that either. it's just really not worth it when i know that i could be with a woman having a significantly better time and actually getting to cum
>but time will smooth it out
my gf has already been playfully razzing me with the 'i told you so's and giving me shit, and th levity helps a lot. she helps keep me in check

>>82908117
Is this actually the guy? You met him on r9k or something?

>>82908534
Would you hit your girlfriend? Or is that something only reserved for moids?

How do I get a fembot gf with big tits? DD.

>>82908534
>the guy has ed and can barely keep it up even for masturbation. if i so much as shifted too much under him he'd slip out soft
Yeesh. How old was he? How'd you come across someone like that. How did he not get anything to perform better beforehand? Was he really just that checked out?

>>82908577
yeah, we met on here and yeah, that's him.
i would not hit my gf abusively. don't get me wrong, i hit her, but because she likes it :)

>>82908638
like four-ish years younger than me? he takes supplements, but i don't know if they do anything

>>82908534
That's what you get for choosing someone who wasn't even good at video games like me.

>>82908665
>he takes supplements
He should maybe be taking blood pressure meds and something like blue chew if he wanted to actually be up to the task. Unless you're in your mid 40s that's pretty alarming. Was he just that out of shape?

I've been with some guys who couldn't perform in the moment for one reason or another, but at least they were almost always up for the task.

>>82908665
I am both disgusted by your and slightly jealous, because I can't even imagine a foid ever letting me sex her.
Such a strange feeling, jealous of something I don't want.

>>82908665
Does he exercise at all? I think only men with zero physical ability cum fast. I bet he's not very physically fit.

>>82908709
i am gonna beat you, i swear to GOD dude
>>82908731
he doesn't go to the doctor but claims to be in good standing health wise. he's obese and has sleep apnea though, so, i don't know what's actually going on. i count it a mercy that sex was something that was at least over quickly

>>82908534
>i've been with guys that i was able to actually do stuff in bed with
What? I don't get it. Wasn't this "experiment" to see what sex with a man was like? But you had already done it?
How is this any good as data? You don't really talk about the feeling itself or bejng attracted to the male body. Just that he had a shitty dick.

>>82908799
>he's obese
You have to be trolling.

>>82908159
The only concrete stat in that article talks about risk over 40.

>>82908851
my crush. hes probably the most intelligent person ive ever spoken to

>>82908823
my fellow autist, it was not a literal experiment. i was just being cheeky. the feeling of piv sex in my total experience ranges from extremely painful to moderately pleasurable, but i have never been able to orgasm from it. im not sexually attracted to men or the male body, but i can appreciate various forms of beauty men can possess

>>82908799
>claims to be in good standing health wise. he's obese and has sleep apnea though
Sounds like he's a fucking wreck. No wonder he's not able to do anything. You've got a lot more patience for it than I would have.
>>82908851
Aside from my parents, maybe my best friend. She helped me through a lot and is one of the reasons I was able to move on from therapy and be a lot more confident in myself.

>>82908914
So why did you have sex with an obese man you didn't like?

>>82909001
i have multiple pretty major disabilities and am overweight, too, so it's not like im really in a position to judge on that front. he seems totally fine doing normal day-to-day activities
>>82909009
he had me convinced that it would be a good situation and something worth taking a chance on. i was in a really bad spot when we met

>>82909106
>i was in a really bad spot when we met
This fucking line... said by so many.
I'm in a bad spot, always have been. But I don't get sex because of it.

Anyway, thanks for satisfying my curiosity.

>>82909106
How long ago was this? You mentioned you have a gf now, is this recent or did you know her while this other arrangement was going on?

>>82909173
very recent. he moved in with me and my gf and is still living with us but is obviously going to be moving out as soon as he's able to.

>>82909216
I am slightly less fat than him and able to last twice as long. It's only fair I get a shot too.

>>82909216
Hi schaden, moid that wants to be emotionally abused by you, did you date this guy while having a gf? Or do you move in with people quickly or something?

>>82909216
Your gf allowed it? Did he have sex with her too?

>>82909106
>so it's not like im really in a position to judge on that front
It makes a bit more sense. I guess that's a blindspot of mine.

i should stop my GM prep for the night because clearly it's keeping me up.

>>82909227
i want to get off mr bones wild ride
>>82909238
dated while having a gf
>>82909239
she very begrudgingly let me do this, but it was not something she wanted or was happy about or was exactly offering up willingly. it was more that it was my turn to make a Very Bad Decision and she didn't feel she had the right to tell me no. he did not have sex with her.

>>82909311
did her very bad decision also include some sorta cheating?

>>82909326
it did, indeed, involve some sort of cheating

>>82909311
>was more that it was my turn to make a Very Bad Decision and she didn't feel she had the right to tell me no.
Now I want to ask if she had done something like that before. Or what the bad decision was.

>>82909358
can we please have details

>>82909359
>>82909363
she got herself into findom trouble, a recurring issue

>caught something that's had me bedridden for a week, drifting in and out of sleep all day most days
>keep having fever dreams about everyone who's left me or died
Forcing myself to stay up because I'm not emotionally equipped for this right now

>>82909419
Can I assume the name schadenmoid? Would it make you abuse me emotionally?

>>82909631
that's fuckin dumb. i don't really have it in me to be emotionally abusive right now, though

>>82907189
it's not trolling you just make shit up for (you)s. I'm sorry your bf was fat and had a small dick though

>>82909845
it was more that i was copeposting my way through an actual pregnancy scare and making the most of it by trying to bait a mutual board friend of ours. also his dick isn't small, it's average length, it's just skinny

soft skinny dick

>>82906515
>i can very firmly confirm that im definitely just a lesbian
>from extremely painful to moderately pleasurable
Rumao, next we'll have "straight" moids who have a bunch of "moderately pleasurable" encounters with other males in an attempt to gauge whether they were gay or not.
You're a bisexual who leans more towards women at most, at most, true lesbians don't need to do this to know they aren't attracted to men. You're most definitely not physically attracted to the men you've been with themselves, women have a lower looks threshold and are more attractive than men on average

>>82907897
>>82907911
That wasn't me dog.. I fell asleep. You can lie if it makes you feel better because you think I cheated on you, but I didn't.. I am genuinely sorry every guy you have ever been with has done that to you, but I wasn't one of them. I just think it was really funny you came on here saying this stuff when you explictly told me I was the only man you ever enjoyed having sex with, and had to shut the door each time we had sex because you didn't want to wake your gf up due to your noise during intercourse. That, and you even told me to my face there was no way you could ever lie, and say I was bad at sex if you were ever mad because it was so good for you.

Like I said, if you want to lie on r9k because you deluded yourself into thinking I betrayed you to feel better about me moving on after you told me we were done I genuinely hope it helps. But I stand by what I told you before I'm not going to come on here and shit on you about anything. I never cheated on you. We're good. But, do what you need to do to feel better man. Just caught your nonsense in the thread, and had a good laugh while on another "turlet".

why cant females be happy with simple low effort relationships with mutual care and love? why does everything have to be so fucking high effort and unequal with the man making more effort? who do females hate equality in romance so fucking much

>>82909914
did she have big boobies at least? you should work on your weight fren

>>82909948
When you truly love someone you want to try harder for them, and when you truly love someone you also don't want them to exert themselves, when they mutually love each other it should balance out. I don't think a low effort loving relationship doesn't exist

>>82909978
>When you truly love someone you want to try harder for them, and when you truly love someone you also don't want them to exert themselves
So according to this, men are expected to love women and women not to love men in return. And women claim to be the empathetic gender lol
>I don't think a low effort loving relationship doesn't exist
But women don't accept them. Or they do for a little while and then become intensely resentful and then demand much much more

>>82909877
Oh, sorry. you're better off with your gf then!

>>82909912
i already knew that i wasn't attracted to men, dummy
>>82909914
i already told you that i don't care about the cheating. i was never emotionally invested in this and it doesn't bother me that you were doing those things. that was literally never an issue. if it were, i would have said something about it

>>82909984
you are actually the biggest faggot loser on r9k and youre the only person here i wish would kill themselves

>>82910004
Im a nice guy and women should settle for nice guy losers like me. its only fair.

>>82909984
What kind of "loving" are we talking about? Most relationships are equal after getting established, you don't "love" strangers who are trying to get you to date them

>>82909956
>Big boobies?
Absolutetly. She is well endowed, and has been her whole life. You can see for yourself in the archives.
>Lose weight fren
I've been steadily losing since last January, and I'm doing good. I've stalled a bit on my weight lifting, but that's only because I didn't have the room to bring them with me during the move. She's going through it, so take what she says with a grain of salt. Enjoy the show for the time being. I anticipate it will go on for awhile..

>>82909948
If you want a fwb then have one but no woman in her right mind would settle for it long term. Or perhaps become a homosexual, gays seem to enjoy a more transient lifestyle. Most women's end game is putting down roots and being with a stable caring man. Don't like it don't play

>>82910008
>Most relationships are equal after getting established
No they aren't lol, women expect men to be the "provider"
>you don't "love" strangers who are trying to get you to date them
Women shouldn't demand men to more to start dating than women do. Women should accept fairness in all parts of romance, even the parts where they want female privilege rather than equality.
>>82910014
Nah women should just lower their standards. They don't want stable caring men, they want stable caring chad unicorns, and would rather be with unstable abusechads than with stable caring incels

>>82910007
i genuinely cant tell if youre trolling
>im such a nice guy but women only want abusechads
>abuses women, wants their rights taken away, has expressed desire to rape women

>>82910001
I never cheated on you. I was all about you the entire time we were together. I wanted to have a good life with you, and only you. Your evidence of me "cheating" in your own words was me directing my phone screen away from you, and moving around quickly on my computer when you walked into the bedroom. You felt I was hiding things from you because of that. It breaks my heart that you felt that way. I would never do that to you. I didn't realize it came off that I was doing that, and wish we talked about that before you jumped to conclusions, and ran with them. I think much like how I tend to keep my head on a swivel when we'd smoke on the patio together I just have a sort of paranoid behavior from long periods of isolation. This probably bleeds into other behaviors of mine, and I'm just not acutely aware it's akways happening. I stand by what I said before. I'm not going to come on here and ever bad mouth you. If it makes you feel better then by all means. I was just having a laugh at the obsurdity of your posts, and if anything they made me smile. I'm sure that'll be the case in the future as we're here forever.

>>82910025
And men expect women to be child bearers and submissive
>Inb4 no
That's just biology, women are naturally restrained and submissive to their nature, the circumstances of their existence dictates it
Absolute "equality" is unfair and disadvantageous to women. Women who are in 50/50 relationships with men while still bound to their physiology are retards. The only way it would work or be fair is if it was with another woman.
Thoughever I do agree that women can go overboard with it

>>82910057
Also, the copious amounts of drugs probably don't help with the behavior either.. It do be like that.

>>82910031
>>abuses women, wants their rights taken away, has expressed desire to rape women
I've never said or done any of that. Women love to assume that incels support shit like that but the men women actually date are more likely to be like that than us incels are. Personally I support equal rights and oppose rape and abuse. I just wish women weren't so shallow and didn't demand men perform gender roles and beauty standards since women no longer need to do those things. Women should just be easier.

>>82910063
>And men expect women to be child bearers and submissive
>>Inb4 no
More and more people in general these days just don't expect or do that shit. Many of us don't want or expect kids and just want fairness
>That's just biology
The lazy excuse of the bigot and the conservative lol
>Absolute "equality" is unfair and disadvantageous to women
Nope. Not at all. Men should demand absolute equality. Any less is oppression.

>>82910068
lmao retard ive argued with you previously and you had a complete tard fag meltdown. i can go on the archives now and find it

>>82910057
you're literally fucking a girl from your d&d group that you hooked up with the same day that i texted you i was done with you. i don't know why you're trying to virtue signal so hard about this. i wasn't even the one who brought up you cheating

>>82910074
Forcing people into relationships they don't want is oppression.

>>82907897
>girthless dick
I thought women didnt care about that sort of thing, fuck

>>82910057
also you weren't just turning your phone away and closing out of tabs, i walked in on you up in girl's dms and looking at nudes. maybe i would have talked to you about it if i cared, but i didn't. it's not like with my gf. i never loved you, i don't care if you were cheating. i cared when she did it because i love her and that relationship is important to me

>>82910107
it's okay anon, the normal sized ones hurt

>>82910012
>>82910012
>You can see for yourself in the archives.
she says she's fat now that doesn't represent anything

>>82910158
Women should settle for non penetrative sex and stop being so patriarchal and dick focused

>>82910158
Why cant they just finish those damn robots already

>>82910116
>>82910057
FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT! KILL! MAIM! INSULT!

>>82910175
brother, im a dyke. you're preaching to the choir.

>>82910194
why u gave moid a chance? was it a revenge on gf sort of thing?

my opinion on females
https://voca.ro/124FfIhghyvB

>>82910171
holy shit im not a lesbian but shes hot as fuck, idec if shes bigger, probably more shapely and even hotter

>>82910200
not revenge. moid fed me fanciful tales about how him being with me would improve my life and make things better for me and also my gf, but then it just turned out that he was a major burden on us

also this is clearly a work between the two of them and they're just trolling if that wasn't already obvious.

>>82910220
you're working yourself into a shoot

ED moid ruined our reputation, bros...

>>82910224
you're trying to draw cheap heat

big talk for someone with go away heat

fuckin jabroni mark

>>82910237
big talk for someone who just had the biggest botch on r9k in years. KWAB!

>>82910253
blading like shawn in 03 tonight

>>82910284
schadenfoidbros.. why won't they leave us alone?

>>82906301 (OP)
i missed the biofem threads:)

>T. bio male

>>82910079
You're accusing me of things I didn't do, and making up lies about me on r9k (again). You're hurt, and going through it because I'm moving on after you told me we were done.
>>82910116
The only nudes I have gotten in the last year were from you. I wasn't talking to anyone like that while we were together at all. It was all related to tabletop groups.

Femcel and chad is the goat pairing and nobody will change my opinion

>>82908851
My parents, my older brother, and my bf are all pretty amazing. And my friend Windy.

>>82909293
>should stop my GM prep for the night because clearly it's keeping me up.
What are you running?

Something about this thread feels awfully different.

>>82910883
It does: you haven't finished your story.

>>82910883
Well, most nonas not posting, sadly.
How have you been?

>>82910883
Yeah.
I don't even
so I won't

That aside, how have you been?
>>82910867
Pathfinder 2e.

It's a homebrew setting of mine where a demon lord has been recently defeated by a heroes party bringing an end to a decades long war. Now the alliance of kingdoms, nations and mercenary bands that fought against the demon lord are is now on the verge of disbanding as scheming and politicking begin to occur. The party are new hires in a mercenary company called the Carmine Standard in the employ of a mercantile city state recovering from prolonged siege.

>>82910905
I can't even remember where I got up to anon. I got so depressed about what happened around Christmas that this year has been a grey blur for me for the most part. I can't tell you how many bottles of wine I've gotten through. My organs are probably almost pickled.
>>82911067
Not well. Sadly. It's been a very bad year for me. I appreciate your asking though anon that's very kind.

>>82911150
This year I've seen
>2 promotions at work
>a 40% increase in pay
>an 80% increase in alcohol consumption
>One of my most precious team members left for another job at another firm. I took it rather badly. I miss them a lot. That's the thing about colleagues. The good ones never stay, the bad ones never leave.

Apart from that, as I've said before, it's been getting tougher and tougher to plaster on that little smile every day before I leave the house. Harder to keep it up, and by the time I open my front door I'm in tears. cut my hand open a couple of months ago because my hand slipped when cutting carrots and the A&E doctor took one look at me and I had this awful notion that he peered right into my soul and saw how miserable I was. He was extra kind to me the entire time and then gave me a mental health pamphlet on my way out. That was a very awful night. Knowing I can't hide it from trained eyes anymore makes me want to lock my front door and never open it again. I think I genuinely hate who I am.

How are you both?

>>82911304
Not sure what to tell you, sisterchan.... You probably know all those therapy tricks.....
Any clue what might help you? Realistically

>>82911304
not sure if it means much, but big congrats on the promotions! more spain vacations, perhaps?

>>82911491
At this point I'm almost positive that my brain just isn't wired to be happy anymore. Perhaps it never was. When William was around I was another person. It's been so long now that those memories feel like dreams. Did you know that each time you recall a memory, you're recalling the last time you recalled that memory? That's why memories degrade over time. It's also why you can watch home videos and look at old pictures and forget how you felt in those moments even though you were clearly in them. Our biology is horrifically cruel. Each time you try to comfort yourself with memories of the past you're simply writing over them. The more you do it, the more distant, fractured and faded the memory becomes...

>>82911636
Thank you anon. I miss that coworker dearly because they were a huge reason why I was able to achieve so much. Some nights it was just me and her in the office. One light on, ordering food to the lobby, having sneaky wines after wrapping up and watching trashy TV shows or singing karaoke using the board room TV and youtube whilst enjoying a late dinner together... It's like anyone I bring myself to truly care about always leaves.

>>82910079
Why would you care if he's cheating when you literally have a gf you were also having sex with.

>>82911304
>2 promotions at work
>a 40% increase in pay
Very nice.
>an 80% increase in alcohol consumption
>One of my most precious team members left for another job at another firm
Less nice.
>The good ones never stay, the bad ones never leave
Especially when they're your shitty bosses.
>Knowing I can't hide it from trained eyes anymore makes me want to lock my front door and never open it again.
iktf. Finding a new job that allowed me to work hybrid and eventually remote helped to vent a lot of that same pressure. Using healthy coping and stress management strategies helped, because nights out and alcohol got expensive.

Hopefully things work out for you. You don't deserve to be miserable.
>How are you both?
I'm doing well enough.
>went to Spain for a funeral and reconnected with family I hadn't seen in ages
>bf moved in and found a much better job
>having him around now means I'm in better place (better meals, working out together, new hobbies, taking better care of myself, etc)
>went to the US GP last week
>>82911686
>At this point I'm almost positive that my brain just isn't wired to be happy anymore
Don't say that. You absolutely can be happy. You just need to find out how.
>I miss that coworker dearly because they were a huge reason why I was able to achieve so much
I had a friend and a coworker like that once. Lots of overtime together followed by later night dinner, drinking and debauchery. Sharing the highest highs, the lowest lows, and having lots of great (and less great) memories at the end of it. It sucked having to leave that job.

You'll move past it eventually, like I did. Maybe you'll get lucky and find another partner in crime.

What I'm learning from this is that women hate nice men. They will only fuck men who tell them lies. If you want to have sex with women with huge tits you have to lie to them. The only mistake this guy made is that he wasn't able to perform. If he were able to perform at an average level the foid would have fallen in love with him. That's all it takes. Lies and decent dick.

I have decent dick but I won't lie to you. It's actually the best. Who wants to be lied to and fall in love?

>>82911686
>I miss that coworker dearly because they were a huge reason why I was able to achieve so much
>they

I'm slightly less obese.
I can last 10 times as long.
My cock is slightly girthier.
My sleep apnea is only half as bad.
No women send me nudes.
I'll let you get on top.
I'm the perfect match for you.

How do you get a gf like this

https://youtu.be/ySyrctMjssc?si=X4iM8Wf4oomqoDxo

sex with schadenfoid's gf

>>82912959
Are they afab?

had sex with moid again award

>>82910883
*hug* Good to see you again. Sorry things are bad for you and I genuinely hope they get better.

And two the person who cares on the off chance that you read this: it looks like Cowbell has finally landed a better job! Nothing finalized, but apparently it's 99% a done deal; and she's happier than she's been in the last year and a half.

>>82911150
That sounds awesome! My group is currently playing Malifaux - Through the Breach, but I finally managed to talk my GM and table into taking another crack at World of Darkness in the spring.

>>82914124
>two
Way to uphold the dumb blonde stereotype, flo.

>>82914124
>Malifaux - Through the Breach
I want a divorce now.

I'm schadenfoids biggest fan, she has such depth. Sometimes she's angry and wants to hurt you, other times she's vulnerable and you feel like you get to know her. I love schadenfoid.

I'm tall, lean, have a deep voice and a big dick, but I'm kind of ugly. Is it over for me? Do women like ogre creatures?

>>82914357
Aw, what's wrong with it? : (

>>82911686
>At this point I'm almost positive that my brain just isn't wired to be happy anymore
Plenty of people told you to stop doing the obsessive egoistic shit you did, because it was completely obvious it was going to end horrific for you.
Some of out disgust, some out of sympathy.
Granted, anons writing things on 4chan may not be seen as important for many.
But the point is, you dug yourself into this hole and you should find a way out. You have nobody else to blame for it, which might make it easier, since you have only one person to work on, instead of trauma inflicted by others.

>>82911304
I'm sorry you are dealing with that all, nona. I hope things get better for you. Take care of yourself though. That alcohol isn't doing you any good for self-medicating if you are still depressed.

>>82914620
If you're a genuinely kind person as a priority, every lass knows that's the winning combo.

>>82914673
Fine there will be no divorce and we will stay married. : )

>>82914987
>kind person
nonono I know how you people work, I'm looking for brutal honesty I would never get irl

Hii this is chickn. Am i welcome here.

>>82915361
No, really; is there something you dislike about it or were you just making a joke? I won't take it personally, I'm just curious.

>>82915847
It was just a joke.

>>82915902
>It was just a joke.
Ah, gotcha; sorry I made a thing out of it. : )

>>82906676
and you believed her. you people are absolutely hopeless. /r9k/ fags are the biggest and most gullible simps and retards i've ever witnessed.

>>82907189
you weren't "trolling," you did some stupid shit that in retrospect you feel stupid about and this is your damage control. you're honestly one of the dumbest namefags i've ever seen dis(grace) this godless shithole board, no, the entire website, and frankly, you're far too old to be doing this shit still. retire, quit while you're ahead.

>>82907239
you are a monumental fucking pussy, a retard and probably also a troon

>>82909877
>it was more that i was copeposting my way through an actual pregnancy scare and making the most of it by trying to bait a mutual board friend of ours.

you are the most retarded attention whore bpd bitch ever and you post on this shithole all day because nobody could ever be around you irl for more than two minutes without wanting to put a loaded gun in their mouth and pull the trigger

>>82909914
you explictly told me I was the only man you ever enjoyed having sex with, and had to shut the door each time we had sex because you didn't want to wake your gf up due to your noise during intercourse.
>>82910001
>i already told you that i don't care about the cheating. i was never emotionally invested in this and it doesn't bother me that you were doing those things.

>>82910057
>I never cheated on you. I was all about you the entire time we were together. I wanted to have a good life with you, and only you.
>>82910116
>maybe i would have talked to you about it if i cared, but i didn't. it's not like with my gf. i never loved you, i don't care if you were cheating.

so from the looks of it what happened was

>hapless 4chan simp who has no idea what he's getting himself into moves into decrepit old ancient lesbian's house where she has a LIVE IN GIRLFRIEND after months of "e-dating," psycho lesbo later claims she was coerced under duress by the big bad meanie into trying a hetero relationship despite acting totally differently about it a few months ago (hurr that was trolling)
>retard /r9k/ simp claims he wanted to have a life with her despite being in that undignified arrangement
>cheats on her and spurns old loser lesbo, she damage controls and tries to play it off cool and aloof like there are no hurt feelings and no love lost, classic lesbo narc behavior
>pair of unsightly and extremely unpleasant antisocial retards bring all the dirty laundry out into plain view on the public internet so onlookers can read about it and comment on their private affairs

you people are vermin, anyone could have guessed things would transpire this way but i stopped trying to help retarded /r9k/ males by warning them about dating women from here

>>82909106
>TWO ABSOLUTELY FAT SOUTHERN AMERICAN HAMBEAST RETARDS FROM THIS BOARD WHO SAY TURLET MEETING IRL AND RUTTING AND SHITTING LIKE BARNYARD ANIMALS THEN POSTING ALL THE DRAMA IN THE BIOTRAN GENERAL THREAD FOR US ALL TO READ

this gets worse and worse with each post i see. you're both fucking fat and disabled and mentally challenged and you say turlet. fuck. fucking hell. please just expire.

Oh chrer uop gyu gyuys

Ist almoys halloween arenent any of u up to fun stuff like putting on a horny lil constume n getting your dadoinks out
?? R u rly tellin me nonona else is at a cossune pary rn?

>>82914124
>Malifaux - Through the Breach
Never heard of it.
>card-based checks
Oh, that explains why. You can only play it in person or on TTS.

I managed to talk Scrubs into joining my TTRPG nights tonight, but on the condition that the next campaign we try be Rogue Trader. I probably won't GM that, but his knowledge of the lore will mean I have a way to be eased into the setting.

>>82916885
>disabled and mentally challenged
Oh the irony.

why is bro so mad? is he stupid?

>>82916731
I do not care what you think

>>82916747
Someone is jealous. Relax.

>>82916722
>>82916747
>>82916824
>>82916885
trvthnvke
annoying fake lesbo ahh

>>82916824
>r9k men need to be warned about dating a "lesbian" with a girlfriend

dear women,
how do i get my ex back?
she blocked me on all accs but keeps unblocking and stalking me on one then reblocking (her pfp on ig keeps reappering and dissapearing in my chats list only on that account)
i miss her dearly and she left me because of her cptsd and i didnt know what to do back then, but ive been educating myself on it, on how to be supportive, she only opened up the day she ended it after a year (non communicative bc of her condition i guess?)

what can i do, my emotions have settled already (it was several months ago) so im not feeling crazy. i felt something for her i have never felt before, and i need one more go. and i am at a loss!

Is it harder for unattractive retard women to date dykes or twinks? Or are the odds similar? Masculine men seem to be the ones with the lowest set of standards, at least physically