Really appreciate it if y'all could give advice without being too judgemental on this one.
I'm not really attracted to guys, I'm a lesbian. I made a deal with one of my male best friends, I'd be his wife in public but privately we'd do our own stuff.
Then we kinda caught feelings for each other in a real way, but as big as I'm into spending the rest of my life with him I just do not feel any attraction at all to his male body.
I feel like this ain't gonna work out but I thought I'd take a shot in the dark and ask a Mongolian basket weaving forum how I can make myself attracted to men?