Hey guys, I honestly got a bit of a problem. I am gonna turn to this general, since it seems to contain the most normal/capable/emotionally intelligent people on this website. I recently turned 26 and as most on this website I never was good with women until a few years back, I lost my v card at 24. But things have changed now, I think for male standards I am doing pretty good in that regard and I am by no means as depressed (I am so happy about this fact). I managed to do a complete 180 in my life. I quit 4chan for a long time. Me coming back here occasionally seems to be an indicator, that I am falling into my former state of mind, anyways.

The thing is that everything related to the other gender is kinda fucked in my head. I have massive insecurities and complexes concerning women, the amount of validation I get from female attention is grinding me down. I think I have to meet as many women as possible because of fomo, because I am thinking about past talking stages being able to obtain sex with no difficulty, to make up for what I missed out on. So periods of female absence really take a toll on my mental health.

It depresses me that other people (especially women) can obtain so easily, what I had to work for my entire youth/young adult years. Ever since I went to uni I have been plotting on how to make girls and people in general like me while making it seem so effortless. While they were having the time of their lives, I was damned to wallow and self loath in my own misery. I am not accusing anyone of being responsible for me, it was mainly due to my own actions and thoughts, but still... fuck man. I am confronted by everything that could have been. At times it feels like I finaly have what I always wanted and it is not enough