>>40637598
no i certainly did not

and i never had thc until late 2020 in a last effort to save myself from suicide (it worked

i got on disability in 2016 after 18mo of declining health; i was already bedridden by the pain from my ulcerative colitis by the time i finally was convinced to get disability after like my 6th or 7th hospitalization and i couldnt even make music anymore

im not allowed to take thc anymore because of my pain dr in my new state

if you think im not actually disabled; let me give you a peek of how fucked my spine really is

see how much it sticks out? if that was instead on the front of my and was breast tissue instead of fucking fractured deformed bones i wouldnt be dysphoric from being flat

it hurts so fucking much every day; im lucky to be able to sit at my desk a few hours; until last year i basically couldnt for like 8 years

just standing long enough to take a quick shower (even with my wife's help in washing my body and hair) leaves me in agony for an hour after

the last 2 months have been much worse than usual so i just asked my dr today for an increase in my pain medicine; which is now the maximum safe dose per day for hydrocodone (limited by the acetaminophen component); if i ever need more ill have to take a stronger; more dangerous medication; most of which are experiencing endless nationwide shortages the past few years because of harmful DEA policies overreacting to the "opipoid epidemic"; which legitimate and safe prescription medicines have no part in; almost all overdoses are always illegal street fentanyl; my dr offered me a fentanyl patch but i declined it scares me too much; your body gets a bit too warm one day and suddenly your absorbing it faster and you overdose; no thanks

i did not ask or choose to be fucking disabled and deformed; and especially not to be in severe pain every single day of my life and to need to take medications i have to be dependant on just to survive all the pain without wanting to die